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sweet dreams: June 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Saturday, June 26, 2010. It was that quick. I am now an unofficial ninth grader. Yup- the kids everybody hates in the high school. Tiny, scared, and overconfident. Overconfidence shouldn't really be a problem for me. I'm caught up in a bunch of places. I am ninety pounds. I mean, honestly, that really shouldn't bother me. But i'm still the same height. I keep lying about how much i weigh-. Oh, maybe 85 1/2 pounds? And i hate myself for it. I bite my arms.
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sweet dreams: summer.
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Saturday, June 26, 2010. It was that quick. I am now an unofficial ninth grader. Yup- the kids everybody hates in the high school. Tiny, scared, and overconfident. Overconfidence shouldn't really be a problem for me. I'm caught up in a bunch of places. I am ninety pounds. I mean, honestly, that really shouldn't bother me. But i'm still the same height. I keep lying about how much i weigh-. Oh, maybe 85 1/2 pounds? And i hate myself for it. I bite my arms.
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sweet dreams: THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Sunday, June 13, 2010. I really have to work on timing for this. ugh. I know i've become super lazy, posting once or twice a month. But this time i do have an excuse! Cue jaws music, because here comes. THE END OF THE YEAR. Yeah so it shouldn't be THAT big a deal, right? A couple weeks ago, i had a. erm. breakdown. Only this time it wasn't all in my head. I let fly far too many emotions. I let fly far too many secrets. And they sent me. But i didn't stay there.
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sweet dreams: July 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Monday, July 5, 2010. Matters of life and death. I realize something now. I could have killed someone. When i was alone. When i was scared. When i was scarred. When my teeth were bared. I could have killed someone. When my cuts started to fade. When i never seemed to bruise. When i hit myself but it never mattered. When i always lost the battle. It was never me. When i haven't succeeded. I was just killing someone else. And i haven't even bleeded.
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sweet dreams: May 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Saturday, May 15, 2010. One, two, three, four, tell me that you love me more. I haven't said anything here in such a long time. So much has happened. Remember the sweet pleasure i told you about? They found the cuts. That's right, i was cutting myself. It gave me a way to finally, FINALLY, leek out my brain from my body. AND THE BLOOD WAS BEAUTIFUL. So much has changed. They made me tell them. They made me cry. And i wished i could have never stopped.
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sweet dreams: August 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Monday, August 9, 2010. An upside down home. I can now say. My life's been thrown. I'm not sure what's really home. I've thought about things beyond my norm. I've looked at my skin-and-bones body and thought i was too big. I've wanted to kiss someone, just to make them feel better. I have a twin sister (but not really). I've laughed at a joke about someone everyone loves. I've been told i'm pretty by someone i don't know well. I've met a real genius (or two).
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sweet dreams: September 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Thursday, September 16, 2010. High school. just like in the movies. You know, i wonder if my cursing ever pisses people off sometimes? I'm just looking for a little inspiration right now. Why does it feel like i've lost my worlds? Like i've lost all my words that i used to write beautiful things with? Like i've lost the eyes that used to see beautiful things? Like i've lost that "beautiful" singing voice, that used to echo like an angel's? My voice just hurts.
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sweet dreams: an upside down home
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Monday, August 9, 2010. An upside down home. I can now say. My life's been thrown. I'm not sure what's really home. I've thought about things beyond my norm. I've looked at my skin-and-bones body and thought i was too big. I've wanted to kiss someone, just to make them feel better. I have a twin sister (but not really). I've laughed at a joke about someone everyone loves. I've been told i'm pretty by someone i don't know well. I've met a real genius (or two).
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sweet dreams: March 2010
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Because sometimes we just can't face reality. Sunday, March 28, 2010. I made a promise this week. To myself, to make myself a better person. I want to work harder. i want to make myself work harder. Look up more. look people in the eye. I will finish eighth grade alive, and i will do it with confidence. And one thousand paper cranes. By the end of this year, i want to have made a thousand cranes total. I want it to mark the end of one . And the beginning of a new . I can fill in the blank as i go. It's n...