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Sunday, August 10, 2008. Life or the lack thereof. It's nearly midnight. The streets are strangely quiet, no siren, not many cars passing by. The house feels empty. If not for the washing machine that is spinning and whirling, it would have been utterly quiet. I sit in a corner of my room, feeling the emptiness in my head and my heart. I have. One can't live without a hope". I understand it now. My life was full of promise. I have a great job. I have a good family. I had. Well, I guess my life is not tha...
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Thursday, September 30, 2004. The still of the night. Time like this, i wish i could be deaf. The night is too long to go through. Ni submitted homework at 6:20 AM 7 more assignments. It started with a dedication. Lost in admiration - happy birthday - I'm forever yours". 6 months went by, the summer lost. Please try to understand. I have to see you - have to feel you. Tell you all the ways I need you. Yours, forever in love". Her opening so well prepared. I couldn't take my eyes from her. He usually slee...
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Monday, March 07, 2005. The moment i stepped into my room, i felt the stillness in the air. i stared into the tomb-like darkness, wanting to see what i wished to see. but i saw nothing. i heard the deafening silence. i listened hard. he's calling out for a friend. I made friend with him. An annoying noise from the spinning ceiling fan is another friend of ours. the door was left ajar and i heard the footsteps. i did not wish to turn to peek at it. I miss you. i miss how life used to be. Take me out of he...
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Monday, November 29, 2004. The Ni is Bitching. I can't stand it when people think you are stupid. i can't stand it when people think their consoling words are enough to make up for everything. i can't stand it even more when they think their hidden agendas are completely concealed under their smooth talks. You think i'm stupid? But i bet you don't even know i'm talking about you. haha. Pocky i love you so much for you never pretend. i know that (most of the time) you care cos when you don't care, you...
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Wednesday, March 31, 2004. Sometimes i'm tired of manipulating the facts about myself. why can't i just tell them straight? Why must i hide? Why must i care? Do i really care? Actually i don't. so why am i doing this? Okay, i started to feel stupid as i'm talking to myself). Fine i shall not hide anymore. i accept myself as i am. and i don't care if pple can accept it or not as the choise they made will never affect me at all. Ni submitted homework at 1:18 AM 0 more assignments. Friday, March 05, 2004.
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Sunday, March 06, 2005. I went to coffee bean today to do my project. was ordering coffee from a guy who always serves me. He asked, "you alone? He continued, "you used to have a companion right? I smiled a sad but happy smile and replied "yes". At least i used to. You are wrong. memories are not just fragments of the past, they're what makes the present more bearable. Btw, WHERE IS MY GLUTTON SQUARE? I wanna eat chicken rice. Ni submitted homework at 12:17 AM. Don't want a dog. I've got your rabbitch.
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Monday, March 07, 2005. Do you think there is anyone whose mind so beautiful and whose logic so simple that he does not know how to lie? There is. it's my brother. If you ask him about what he has done which possibly make you angry and him feel guilty, he will nervously try to avoid it by repeating your question or looking down the floor and eventually he will tell you the truth and beg for your forgiveness. Imagine if everyone is like him? How is it gonna be like? Or will it be all messed up? I think ly...
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005. What age do i act? You Are 26 Years Old. Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come. love, work, and new experiences. What Age Do You Act? Do i really act like i'm 26? Should i be happy or sad? Which OS are You? By Cho...
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Friday, February 27, 2004. My colleagues always talk about expensive watches, cars, condo, landed properties, hi-fi sets, holidays. One of my bosses told me he wanted to bring his wife to this spa resort in thailand that will cost them US$4,000 (if not US$10,000, can't remember) per night. Am i gonna grow up being like them? Is it a good thing to be able to grow up and be like them? Ni submitted homework at 3:59 PM 0 more assignments. Tuesday, February 24, 2004. It was the best i ever had. The only thing...
