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Busy Bonzlee: It's All In My Head!
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. It's All In My Head! Friday, July 25, 2008. When I begin to cry or I'm really upset, I have that downward spiral feeling that I know is going to lead to a pit of emotion that I must wade my way out of. Ugh! Must I take this trip yet again! I used to be in the second position all the time. My mom made me feel insecure. My classmates made me hate my body. Society makes me hate that I am not perfect. They all made me do it! Made me do it! And I see finally that...
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Busy Bonzlee: Untangling the Web I Weave
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Untangling the Web I Weave. Wednesday, July 23, 2008. So with everything seeming to have fallen inline, I cannot help but wonder why I have spent most of this day feeling insecure, scared, nervous. What if I screw something up? It goes right back to what I wrote about the other day - fear of abandoment. As unsignedmasterpiece. Said in a comment, "For what it's worth, you sound pretty loveable to me." And aren't I? My husband actually told me once that he isn...
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Busy Bonzlee: Busy Bee Indeed!
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Thursday, August 7, 2008. So time has flown and I'm in a frazzle, but hey, that's life, isn't it? Seems most appropriate that I named my blog Busy Bonzlee. Indeed that has been me these past couple weeks. I mean seriously over the edge exploded. My husband and I are in awe, shock and serious stress trying to get it all under our wings so we can move forward into fame and fortune. this is how these things turn out, isn't it? Who would have thunk? When I start...
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Busy Bonzlee: Learning About Loss
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Tuesday, July 29, 2008. Today I've wondered why God wants us to learn lessons about loss. Why must we go through the processes of parting from things and people we love? What is gained through this pain and heartache, and what are we suppose to find when we come out the other side? Our kitty Misty has not come home. So what of it, God, how come we go through loss? Once said, "The depth of our grief is a measure of how deeply we have loved.". So that loss tau...
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Busy Bonzlee: July 2008
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Tuesday, July 29, 2008. Today I've wondered why God wants us to learn lessons about loss. Why must we go through the processes of parting from things and people we love? What is gained through this pain and heartache, and what are we suppose to find when we come out the other side? Our kitty Misty has not come home. So what of it, God, how come we go through loss? Once said, "The depth of our grief is a measure of how deeply we have loved.". So that loss tau...
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Busy Bonzlee: Getting Into the Flow
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Getting Into the Flow. Tuesday, August 12, 2008. So I've been teaching a painting class. I call it "Anyone Can Paint! Although to me it has nothing to do with painting, that is just the vehicle I am using to teach something else. I am teaching individuals how they get into the flow - the creative flow. How do you get into the creative flow? I took many classes from Rassouli. The founder of Fusionart. Ralph always says. "Everything is meant to be.". I’v...
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Busy Bonzlee: Ruminating Over Assagioli
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Thursday, July 24, 2008. Tonight I was reading a friend's blog, and she brought up the discussion how others judge us for what we do. She had met somebody new, and she was concerned some of her "mistakes" in the past would cause this individual to reject her. Such a common theme. goes along this concept of abandonment which I have been tumbling in this week. We are not human beings who have spiritual experiences. 1 I have a body, but I am not my body. We hav...
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Busy Bonzlee: August 2008
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Getting Into the Flow. Tuesday, August 12, 2008. So I've been teaching a painting class. I call it "Anyone Can Paint! Although to me it has nothing to do with painting, that is just the vehicle I am using to teach something else. I am teaching individuals how they get into the flow - the creative flow. How do you get into the creative flow? I took many classes from Rassouli. The founder of Fusionart. Ralph always says. "Everything is meant to be.". I’v...
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Busy Bonzlee: Unbraiding the Anger
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Daily musings of a woman who talks to herself. Friday, August 8, 2008. I just had a huge Aha! Moment. Had to get up to share. I just figured why I've been angry at somebody for several months now. I figured it out, and the anger has washed away. What a relief! And I realized tonight that I am angry at myself for not seeing through this car repair guy to start with. But despite all my ignoring and not paying attention, I am most angry at me because of my longing to belong. I AM ANGRY BECAUSE I BETRAYED ME.