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Skip to main content. When the rooftops shone dark all alone saw a spark. January 16, 2016. Lisa Unger, Beautiful Lies. I am looking to new, beautiful things to fill my heart and life. It’s a joyful process. Symbolically releasing those weights – the people, the events, the outgrown dreams and ideas – is therapeutic. Going to nature to do it gives me a beautiful moment immediately with which to start the process of filling those empty places. January 11, 2016. Forty nine years of life and I still have so...

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You only have to look behind you/At who’s undermined you – xiane.dot.org

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Skip to main content. You only have to look behind you/At who’s undermined you. August 10, 2015. Ladytron, Destroy Everything You Touch. It’s easy in those moments -when you’re losing, when you’re watching another person walk away because you’re not what they wanted – to feel like it’s you, like you’re the one who ruins everything. But LISTEN TO ME. Please? Take a chance. Love. Live. Dance, sing, explore, dream. This is it, this is what you get – don’t waste that. I write, as openly as possible, about my...

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Yet, as ivy groweth green and never changes, Even evil cannot turn us into strangers – xiane.dot.org

http://www.xiane.org/2015/06/18/yet-as-ivy-groweth-green

Skip to main content. Yet, as ivy groweth green and never changes, Even evil cannot turn us into strangers. June 18, 2015. A large part of life is taken up with the Struggle. That’s neither good nor bad: it just is. That’s how life rolls. On the good days, everything is pretty amazing. [even when it’s just okay and everyday… I’m still pretty enthused by it all, I really am.]. My friends, helps immensely. I also have people who do wonderful things like talking me through the bad times, too. I write, as op...

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I’ll try to remember what you look like sitting there – xiane.dot.org

http://www.xiane.org/2014/05/29/ill-try-to-remember-what-you-look-like-sitting-there

Skip to main content. I’ll try to remember what you look like sitting there. May 29, 2014. May 29, 2014. I really should update more often. To know who I am now, I often look to the past to show me where I’ve been, and how I got from there to here. It’s not to dwell [well, not necessarily – though I admit that sometimes I get “stuck” in memories, because they’re pleasant or interesting] but rather to take perspective. Heh So basically this blogging gig is a giant mindfuck for me, on me. Let me hold you t...

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us angels aren’t afraid of water – are we? – xiane.dot.org

http://www.xiane.org/2015/06/03/us-angels-arent-afraid-of-water-are-we

Skip to main content. Us angels aren’t afraid of water – are we? June 3, 2015. Despite the fact that I’ve written an overwhelming amount of posts that weren’t the most positive in recent history…. And despite the fact that a lot of really difficult things have been happening in my life lately…. Despite the fact that I’ve had to make some tough choices that left everyone hurting after the fact, including me…. Life is still good. Self-examination is important. Looking at myself with clear and honest ey...

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If I can’t break out now, the time just won’t come – xiane.dot.org

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Skip to main content. If I can’t break out now, the time just won’t come. April 23, 2015. April 23, 2015. Everything is too hard right now. i have no ambition, no joy, no desire to get up and move around and engage with life. So this is what it’s become. I am so fucking done. And then there’s that worry that i’m making it “all about me.”. Because humans are intrinsically selfish. Because i’m an only child with no kids so of course i make it all about myself. Because i’m a fucking crybaby. I write, as ope...

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Do I know what life could be? I know what I’ve seen – xiane.dot.org

http://www.xiane.org/2015/06/10/do-i-know-what-life-could-be-i-know-what-ive-seen

Skip to main content. Do I know what life could be? I know what I’ve seen. June 10, 2015. They offer things that sound so good, too good to be true. Those things: they are. It’s a lie. It’s a bait and switch. It’s preying on dreams and hopes and trust and honesty. Everything that you once said. Seems to be just a lie. You shouldn’t either. I mean, I. And if you aren’t interested in being as good to me as you are to yourself? Well, then I don’t wanna. Let’s just not. The payoff is AMAZING. I saw a stirring.

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You drew a star, and I drew a circle – xiane.dot.org

http://www.xiane.org/2014/09/15/you-drew-a-star-and-i-drew-a-circle

Skip to main content. You drew a star, and I drew a circle. September 15, 2014. November 27, 2014. My friend Vajra runs Conjure Oils. A one-woman driven perfumery business that focuses on both oils for scent and for ritual, and she’s a master at evoking a mood through her blends. She offers a massive category of different oil blends at Conjure, and I could easily buy all of them if only I could afford to – they’re all that good! I recently treated myself to one of her Limited Edition. I write, as openly ...

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Skip to main content. I write, as openly as possible, about my experiences with life, love, creativity, depression and not-depression. I share opinions. I promote compassion and change. I talk about music. I also write poetry and short stories. I like to share them here. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Hedgehogs Stole My Beer! Captain Awkward [hover over me! Hyperbole and a Half – Adventures in Depression. Hyperbole and a Half – Depression Part Two. The Dark Side of the Net. Thomas @ Library of Congress.

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There’s something wrong with me chemically – Something wrong with me inherently – xiane.dot.org

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Skip to main content. There’s something wrong with me chemically – Something wrong with me inherently. June 10, 2014. I am struggling right now. I was marching to the wrong drum. With the wrong scum. Pissing out the wrong energy. Using all the wrong lines. And the wrong signs. With the wrong intensity. I was on the wrong page of the wrong book. With the wrong rendition of the wrong look. With the wrong moon, every wrong night. With the wrong tune playing till it sounded right. You know what sucks? I writ...