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Destructive Affection: January 2008
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Wednesday, January 09, 2008. My first real hobby was gaming. Not games in any organized sense of the word; not roleplaying games and not even video games. Psychology was for me. a hallway that lead to infinite possibilities. It was like opening pandora's box and realizing it's too late to cram the lid back on. I followed my curiosity into the darkest reaches of the human psyche, into the unrelenting light of the human soul and farther then the child who built worlds could've ever dreamed. I can't help bu...
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Destructive Affection: Limit Break
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Thursday, March 20, 2008. I haven't slept well in the past three days; in fact I've barely slept at all. The reasons for this wouldn't make sense to someone who doesn't know me; but I'm quite a terrible insomniac. In order to sleep at all I need to take sleeping pills. The problem with said sleeping pills is once I take them I zonk out and nobody can wake me for 8-9 hours. How does this relate to not sleeping for 3 days? So that my friends is my limit for the moment. My nerves are completely shot....
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Destructive Affection: Victimless Identity
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Monday, March 24, 2008. I hate being sick. I hate it with a passion that transcends reason. I hate that I get dizzy from a few minutes of writing, or playing a game. I hate that there are times am incapacitated, times when my body weakens and fails me and times when my mind and concentration fall apart. But most of all I hate that is what my life is about now. When did my life become about something else? When did it became all about trying to stay alive and traverse emotional land mines?
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Destructive Affection: September 2007
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Saturday, September 15, 2007. Today I was bored. I’ve had this problem my whole life; I have unwatched DVDs on my shelf, unfinished games for every console I own, stacks of books to read and dozens of projects that require urgent attention. So I spent the first half of my only day off this week doing completely nothing. After some delicious café rio I went on a shopping trip and got the next book in “ the age of discovery. 8221; series. After that I tried to play some La Pucelle. This is both a task that...
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Destructive Affection: August 2007
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Sunday, August 26, 2007. It’s been awhile since I’ve updated my blogs; for this I am deeply sorry. Recent shifts in priorities have put writing on a back burner; and to be honest more then just my priorities have shifted. Normally it would be way beneath my pay scale, but since I also get commissions I can put both my knowledge of human psychology and technology to work (and the possibility of make a killing in sales: which thus far I have.). For example: I’m updating all my old blog posts! He has kind o...
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Destructive Affection: Tabula Rasa
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Monday, March 17, 2008. The body is predictable; in times of long pain and stress the arteries clog and harden. Sleep becomes disturbed, the muscles feel heavy and the body becomes lethargic. Concentration becomes difficult to maintain and generally everything goes to hell in a hand basket. It is a twisted irony that of all the people I have loved. each and every one of them had trouble loving me in return. The more I would open and invite. the farther away they would go. Perhaps I sensed...Somehow I hav...
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Destructive Affection: December 2007
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Wednesday, December 19, 2007. In several months. In large part it was due to my health. But to a lesser extent boredom caused it. You see I've been a storyteller my entire life, and the hardest part of being a good storyteller is to tell the stories that your audiance. A few sprinkles of drama and intrigue. It reflects it's creators broad range of ideas as well as being a deeply fascinating mesh. It started with a simple image in my head. A row of battered bleary eyed heroes standing on a barren blas...
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Destructive Affection: April 2007
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Friday, April 27, 2007. Sundering the Light and Dark. Sorry for the lack of activity late, I’ve been pulled in a hundred directions recently and my mood hasn’t been conducive to new writing. I have over time sought to wrap myself in different labels: boyfriend, writer, taoist, gamer, guild-officer, democrat, martial artist, dungeon-master, big brother and warrior. You make the label and the label makes you. Or worse someone else makes the label and it makes you. Before you decide to reject labels. Re...
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Destructive Affection: May 2008
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008. When I started this blog I was on the cusp of a major life crisis; things had spun out of control and I needed an outlet for my thoughts and feelings. A new blog will free me to write about every aspect of life objectively. I don't need to be chained to this or anything else. My new blog can be found here. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
