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One long journey: April 2010
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010. Although I had a great vacation - it seemed like my "internal chatter" was greater and got fairly negative by the end of my break. I'm thinking that is because I had no outlet for my thoughts since I can't call or email T. Well I could call if there was something big, but this was the "usual chatter". That led me to think about friends who I might tell so that I might be able to unload when needed. I see a few issues with this -. 1) you never know how it will be perceived. Now w...
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One long journey: January 2011
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Tuesday, January 18, 2011. So - my T and I came to an agreement about this and she gave me the go ahead to call another T last week. Of course, I know I could have done this on my own without the blessing of my T. I mentioned this once and got a very defensive reaction from my T. I also need to make a decision as to whether I want my T there for the actual EMDR sessions. At first I thought it would be important for her to be there and comforting for me. Now, I'm not so sure. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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One long journey: Quick follow up to EMDR/Bill Zeller
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Saturday, February 12, 2011. Quick follow up to EMDR/Bill Zeller. Perhaps because my memories are few and the visions are fleeting? So so sad. It does make me hope that someday I can be an advocate for kids speaking out earlier. Without the feelings locked inside for 23 or 40 years. Labels: childhood sexual abuse. February 14, 2011 at 7:30 PM. I didnt know you could fail at EMDR. Is that true, or is that your distorted thinking? Its good to be interesting, right? It makes you special! Hope you are well,.
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One long journey: August 2010
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010. Has anyone read books by Babette Rothschild (? Spelling). One is The Body Remembers. I just purchased it (along with a couple of others). Still in pursuit of making sense of all this by doing what I do best - reading. Labels: childhood sexual abuse. books. So I don't think I have posted since my mother's death. The services went well. We still have to have a small service at the grave to inter her ashes. 2- Pictures - of my abuser - some with me. Ugh. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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One long journey: March 2010
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Saturday, March 27, 2010. Just because I KNOW it is transference. Doesn't make it easier. One book I've read on vacation is The Talking Cure. It is a quick read dealing with how psychotherapy alters the brain. I found it interesting to discover that this therapist seems to be constantly processing what the patient is saying with her own interpretations and then reprocessing in order to determine how much of her bias she is interjecting, before responding. Must be exhausting. Labels: books about therapy.
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Therapy… | therapythoughts
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February 17, 2009 at 1:15 pm · Filed under Psychotherapist. Welcome to my world of grand illusion,. You can’t come in and join the fun. I have my ticket to fantasy,. My show is about to begin. I’ve stepped right up, left myself behind,. A new hour, and new venue to behold. The lies and hate; I was too young to discriminate. Cries for compassion and depth, how could parents be so inept? Where to turn, a safe place, the mental playgrounds I would create. Just beginningmy God my heads spinning! Fill in your...
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One long journey: November 2010
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010. This one will be different - the first one without my mother. It seems odd already. Also, the date of her birth is this Sunday. And we are having a graveside service on Wednesday to inter her ashes. Lots of triggers in a short period of time. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Wife Mother. Health professional. In therapy. Just beginning my journey of healing and recovery. View my complete profile. Coming Out of the Trees (excerpts from my journal). Tony White - Graffiti.
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depression | Unhappy Happiness
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Life through the lens of social anxiety. What is Social Anxiety? April 22, 2012. It’s been too long since I last blogged. Typing this right now is bringing back lots of memories, good and bad. As many of you know, I tried to kill myself on 5/20/2011. So over the next few days, I will be doing a series of posts detailing some of my notes/thoughts. July 29, 2011. It’s hard enough being overworked, underpaid, and undervalued at work but when you throw insomnia into the mix, it just makes it all so muc...
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depression is waiting | Unhappy Happiness
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Life through the lens of social anxiety. What is Social Anxiety? Superbetter.com →. April 22, 2012. It’s been too long since I last blogged. Typing this right now is bringing back lots of memories, good and bad. As many of you know, I tried to kill myself on 5/20/2011. So over the next few days, I will be doing a series of posts detailing some of my notes/thoughts. Click to email (Opens in new window). Click to print (Opens in new window). Share on Facebook (Opens in new window). April 22, 2012 at 8:32 am.
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Good Enough: Back in the hospital...major PTSD triggers!
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Saturday, April 9, 2011. Back in the hospital.major PTSD triggers! Last night I was allowed two doses of ambien and a percocet for my sleeplessness and pain; to which I said, “I accept! My favorite time of the day is when the docs ask me how I “feel”. It’s funny in that they don’t care…but also in that I’m all sick and cancery looking and they’re all, “how are you ffeeeelllliiinnngggg this morning? How do you think I feel? Thank you – to all of you who emailed me, text, called…etc…IR...Love to all G.
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