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Tools | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/11/05/tools
November 5, 2014. November 5, 2014. 8220;They’re lovely,” he says. Our floor-to-ceiling IKEA shelves are all snapped into place. “Not the hand-made hardwood boxes we’d hoped for, but this’ll do.” I nod my acceptance. 8220;The boxes would have been gorgeous, but we don’t have time for the project. Or room. Or tools. We’d need a lot of tools.”. I’m building shelves! Having a shitty father sucks. We’re taking him to the ER.”. Saturn calls me back– our brother has a bed in the psych unit. I wish I ...8220;I ...
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Fire | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/06/18/fire
June 18, 2014. October 13, 2014. Late in the day we gained the upper hand. Exhausted and ash smeared, some neighbors wandered home to eat, others spread out to rake away lingering flames. The small rural volunteer fire department’s tanks were empty, and the men sent them away to refill and recoup. Everything was under control. I’m sorry, Karla, I could have saved you. Fire (part 2) →. 5 thoughts on “ Fire. June 18, 2014 at 11:01 pm. Even though we were insured, you lose stuff that can never be replaced&#...
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Purity Pt. 1 | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/05/02/purity-pt-1
Purity Pt. 1. May 2, 2014. October 13, 2014. This story is not implying nor leading up to any instance of molestation. I was not touched. Any damage done was as described overtly in these snippets. 8220;Daddy, why can we wear shorts that are above the knee, but skirts have to be to the knee? 8220;Does it make you uncomfortable to wear shorts? 8220;No, I just thought that if seeing my knees in skirts was bothersome, why is it okay in shorts? Wouldn’t it be the same? I was 7 and my body was no longer safe.
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Note to my readers: | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/11/19/note-to-my-readers
Note to my readers:. November 19, 2014. Welcome. Thank you for wanting to hear my story. Until very recently I was writing in a void, very few people aware of my tiny voice in the vast internet universe. A lot more eyes are suddenly here. That is an honor. As the story teller I will continue to do my part: to tell. Do feel free to share this blog freely. Do so with consideration to those whose story is being bared. Ulimate Decision Maker →. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here.
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Ulimate Decision Maker | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2015/05/20/ulimate-decision-maker
May 20, 2015. May 20, 2015. I will marry you. I will stand amid friends and family and I will marry you. You will be my husband and I will be your wife. But I will call you my. Because we are doing life together. We are walking in step. We are blending– equal parts you and me. There is no gender. Just you and me. Strengths, weaknesses, experiences. Tag team and having each others’ backs. Safety. The available hands at dinner time cook. The available arms cuddle and nurture the children. There is no ̶...
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cicadasgirl | onestepbehindonestepahead
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March 25, 2016. March 25, 2016. I just found out I never actually left the church, and this makes me angry. This before. Several times. And here I am again.” Therapy is the actual worst, by the way. I have never felt this routinely devastated in my life. I basically just cry now. That’s my whole existence. 8220;I used to sit in church every week and every pastor– and I sat under so many pastors– every pastor would shout at us:. Why are you even here? Do you read your Bible? And you’re shouting at m...
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Fire (part 2) | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/06/30/fire-part-2
June 30, 2014. October 13, 2014. I woke up disoriented and displaced. The hotel walls slowly came into focus as I heard Mom and Dad talking in hushed tones. Confusion gave way to memory and bile rose in my throat. Tears came and I choked them away. My home was gone. Forever. I don’t know why my parents decided to go to church that first day after the fire. This is a story of when a community works– when grassroots is at its best. Book yet published (my adventuring soul sister whose stories I devoured) in...
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Breathe | onestepbehindonestepahead
https://onestepbehindonestepahead.wordpress.com/2014/11/12/breathe
November 12, 2014. November 12, 2014. Tomorrow is my dad’s birthday. It’s also the one year anniversary of the last time we spoke. 8220;My wife and I will leave you the hell alone.”. He’s been as good as his word. I wonder if he uses my name or if, like my mom, I’m “S. My body remembers anniversaries. I’m trying to speak gently to it, to let it feel what it needs to feel. I’m trying to get through the next two days without another panic attack. I laughed when she said that. “Really? 8220;I’m sorry,...