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Because It Is My Heart: June 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. June 25, 2006. I haven’t posted in a while. None of the ghosts in my heart have rattled their chains or pulled at my heart strings demanding their tales be told. It’s late at night now. Or rather, early in the morning. My favorite time in the summer. When the world is quiet except for the sound of singing crickets, and there is this feeling of being completely alone. Not alone in a bad sense. An aloneness I revel in. I cherish. Treasures for my heart. Links to this post. Because I...
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Because It Is My Heart: May 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. May 23, 2006. Childhood In Two Part Harmony. We were so lucky. We lived in the last days of the club’s innocence. A time before fences and landscaped yards. A time before Hermės riding gear and expensive hand-tooled saddles. A time before the water table had fallen so much that the creek which had seethed with the fish that had fed generations of my family and yours had dried up leaving only a large marsh with cat tails and the beginning of grass. We got ditched snipe hunting toge...
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Because It Is My Heart: April 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. April 29, 2006. The Piercing Of My Breast. What follows is terribly long. I almost feel I should apologize, but the length of the experience can only be conveyed by length of narrative. This is a story of my heart. My heart and a lump in my breast. She could work me in. The if gave me something new to worry about for a moment. I checked again, to see if you were really there. You were. Someone who’s supposed to know about these things. Had decided that breast self-examination made...
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Because It Is My Heart: March 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. March 20, 2006. You have never left me. I was standing at the counter,. I was waiting for the change,. When I heard that old familiar music start. It was like a lighted match. Had been tossed into my soul. It was like a dam had broken in my heart. That guy I just heard in the background. That’s just William. Why? Because I’m going to marry him. And like that, I knew. That probably sounds crazy. It probably. I guess something must have happened,. And we must have said goodbye.
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Because It Is My Heart: November 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. November 18, 2006. Lately, I’ve been re-reading. The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood. Last night, as I stretch out in bed turning page after page, it occurred to me that I’m a wee bit obsessed with Mother Daughter stories. And in thinking about that, I naturally thought about you. But you, on the other hand, you were there for me. If not always in the most appropriate ways or in the most. Simply did not exist. I was angry for all the nights you left me home alone with him w...
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Because It Is My Heart: January 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. January 19, 2006. You had spent the past three months trying to talk me into going ahead and getting married. You were on a campaign. Each day brought a new reason. A new persuasion. We both knew our parents had discussed the possibility. We both knew that if we did go ahead and marry, they would have continued to support us until we both graduated. Nothing much would have changed. I’ve been meaning to talk to you about that. I think I’m pregnant. Of course, I know what you saw, J...
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Because It Is My Heart: August 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. August 04, 2006. A Secret (In A Blog of Secrets). I have a secret vice. Since this blog is the place where I tell all my secrets, I will tell you. It’s The Waltons. Not Sam Walton and the empire of Bentonville, Arkansas. The TV Show. I know what you’re thinking. Yes The Waltons. I watched it as a child growing up, and I still watch it every chance I get. I watch it mostly because my childhood was. I wish we could all be a little more like that. So tonight, I’m aspiring to be a lit...
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Because It Is My Heart: October 2006
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Because It Is My Heart. October 06, 2006. We’ve always joked that we were each other’s real sisters. The other ones, they were mistakes at the hospital. You’re my real sister. My real family. You are the bravest person I’ve ever known. Also the best. Everything you do is founded in kindness and love. And you can make me laugh when the world is crumbling around me. They did their tests, and told you the damage was minimal, but then it happened again. And again. So they put you on a 24 hour heart m...You w...
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Because It Is My Heart: December 2005
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Because It Is My Heart. December 30, 2005. I’ve wondered if I could even begin to write about you. All these years later, I still remember the day we met. It was in orchestra class in 7th grade. Of course, we didn’t become friends until later that year. When we had both begun crossing lines and boundaries, rebels against whatever you had. I remember that you lost your virginity in my bed while my family was on vacation. I still remember the date (December 26th) and I still remember with whom. I remember ...
