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derailed, deranged and dejected but not defeated | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2011/03/15/derailed-deranged-and-dejected-but-not-defeated
March 15, 2011. Derailed, deranged and dejected but not defeated. At 5:45 am by ben. It has been nearly a year since I last posted. Sounds like confession. Fortunately I am not catholic so there are no confessions for me to have forgiven. I have to learn to forgive others and forgive myself, never mind looking for some divine absolution. Speaking of forgiveness, please go easy on me, it’s been a while and my writing tools and brain are a little dull. He helped me renovate, he built cabinets and a vanity ...
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miss adventures | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2011/04/04/miss-adventures
April 4, 2011. At 3:45 am by ben. Than we could have even imagined. And it’s more sanitary, when I think of those ratty books with pages stuck together it makes me cringe. In our late teens Marie and I started hanging out with a group of guys who we knew did a lot of drugs. In an effort to not look ridiculous, know what we were getting into and not cough our guts out we decided to practice smoking dope before we did it with these guys or at a party. Hey, it made sense in 1981! As the little wisps of smok...
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diggin’ it | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2010/04/26/diggin-it
April 26, 2010. Posted in shit happening. At 9:40 pm by ben. Do it but I’d lose my mind typing a real post on such a tiny keyboard and my sanity (such as it is) is worth more than that slightly more. It’s not like I really have a lot to say anyway, as soon you too will note. I doubt anyone gets as excited about shit and dirt as I do. And a bunch of flowers. I don’t usually grow flowers from seed but I swore I would not be buying annuals this year which means I had to start them myself. By the time I leav...
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points of view | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2010/04/06/points-of-view
April 6, 2010. Posted in shit happening. At 9:20 pm by ben. I try to be the kind of person who looks at everything from as many perspectives as I can. I make every attempt to see where a person comes from and what their motives are before I make any kind of judgment. I was not always this way. Age, experience and the past week have enlightened me a little. That was where it started. And since I was so irresponsible she had to quit her job. I gave him the pills. I didn’t know you got blamed for it. I didn...
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minding my own business | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2011/03/25/minding-my-own-business
March 25, 2011. Minding my own business. Posted in getting nail'd. At 3:19 am by ben. The thought of opening my own salon scared the everlovin’ shit out of me. I have such a fear of failure and having had my character assassinated atop that fear made me just want to shut down and disappear. We did talk of leaving town, I couldn’t stand to run into her (unless it was with the front bumper of my car! Not that I particularly wanted to get near. A new client today told me that I have an amazing reputation ar...
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miss judgment | ben
https://benher.wordpress.com/2011/04/11/miss-judgment
April 11, 2011. At 9:58 pm by ben. I could not be friends with someone who would take my confidence and use it against me. I walked away again. My son was in high school by this time and she taught him several times over the five years he was there. I wasn’t worried about her getting involved with him but the thought of ANY teacher with my kid (or any kid! To be honest Trixie fueled the flames as well and made me even more resolute to delete Marie from my life. Why did Trixie hate Marie? When my mother-i...