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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: I need a minute...
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006. I need a minute. Last night I watched North Country. And the computer is in her room. So can't write late at night when I usually do. Anyway.while I was thinking about all the craziness in my life, and how I'm slipping into my old, workaholic habits, I got out of bed to write this. There's a lot going on right now. I need a minute. A minute to run. To run and hide. I need to run and hide. It's okay. It's just for a minute. I'll fight back tomorrow. I need a minute. I've had my...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: Self-Defense course- - False sense of security?
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Thursday, August 24, 2006. Self-Defense course- - False sense of security? I've been trying to think of how to respond to everyone who has commented while I've been on sabbatical. Thank you ALL for all of your comments! I needed a minute.so I took a few, a few hundred/thousand. What if you forget everything? What if you freeze? Now is it your fault? You were trained. While this comment may be a bit radical, it is reasonable to inquire. Furthermore, I think self-defense courses create a false sense of sec...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: Speaking out takes on different forms...
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006. Speaking out takes on different forms. I did it again. I made myself so busy that I have no time to stop and think. Feel. Breathe. Cry. Breathe. Sleep. On a positive note: at least I am stopping myself in shorter intervals, recognizing what I'm doing to myself before it gets waaaaay out of control. But I'm tired. I feel like I'm never going to come out on top. Never going to heal. This past weekend I got to meet Nika. Lesson of the weekend. Hey Jade, I love strangers on my blog!
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: July 2006
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006. While arriving at work everyday I have been greeted by the creepy cleaning man. How do I know he's creepy? He finally gathered his balls and introduced himself to me the other day. I like friendly people who actually take the time to get to know you a bit, rather than googling at you. Only, this is when it turned weird. He asked what I am studying this summer (I work at the college and do research there). I told him. Then went on my way. Monday, July 24, 2006. For me, the energy...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: Another Moment
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006. Well that's easy.too much pain came rushing forward. Following the video I read through the yoga journal. It was so peaceful. I was exhausted. So I went to bed. That two minutes of Yoga helped me relax. I can't wait to do the whole video! I hope this moment that I just had, this burst of energy to make a change, will last this time. It's so hard to make it last. Up and down. Up and down. Round and Round. Stop the damn spinning Alisha! Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: June 2006
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006. I often wonder if I am longing for "it" with another man or if I am longing for "it" with myself. I've been told numerous times that you have to love yourself before you can be in love with somebody else, the true love. Not the needy love. I believe it. But I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to find myself, trying to love myself. When will it be over? When will I accept myself? Do I miss him, "it"? Or do I miss me? You see the pattern. I crave love. But from who? Me or someone else?
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: August 2006
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Sunday, August 27, 2006. My Constitution of Self-Awareness-8.27.06. In the name of myself, Alisha? I hereby lay forth my new constitution. Out of fear of never committing to a centered, healthy well-being, I am declaring some ground rules. It is expected that each day, I adhere to these rules. Failure to commit can result in the continuance of a damaged self. 2 Following yoga, I shall take time to sit and eat breakfast. A healthy mind cannot work without a healthy body (and vice versa). 6 I commit to wor...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: First loves...
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Monday, July 24, 2006. First loves.it's said you never forget your first love. How do you move on? How do you love again? For me, the energy it takes and the trust it takes to put into a relationship before I open up.comes once in a lifetime. And that already happened. How do I do it again? How do you love yourself completely when a part of what you would. Love about yourself is having the ability to fall in love.again. Do you fall in love again and then love the fact that you were able to do so&...Subsc...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: My Constitution of Self-Awareness-8.27.06
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Sunday, August 27, 2006. My Constitution of Self-Awareness-8.27.06. In the name of myself, Alisha? I hereby lay forth my new constitution. Out of fear of never committing to a centered, healthy well-being, I am declaring some ground rules. It is expected that each day, I adhere to these rules. Failure to commit can result in the continuance of a damaged self. 2 Following yoga, I shall take time to sit and eat breakfast. A healthy mind cannot work without a healthy body (and vice versa). 6 I commit to wor...
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Alisha's Survivor Struggles: May 2006
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006. Yesterday I read lyrics to an amazing song that Jessie posted on her blog. I have to share my thoughts. The song is called Heal Over, by KT Tunstall. I'll break down the lyrics. It isn't very difficult to see why. You are the way you are. Doesn't take a genius to realise. That sometimes life is hard. It's gonna take time. But you'll just have to wait. You're gonna be fine. But in the meantime.(Chorus). Come over here lady. Let me wipe your tears away. Come a little nearer baby.
