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Struggling With Submission: Trust?
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Thursday, November 3, 2016. It really bugs me that he wont allow me to talk to most of his other girls. I guess it wouldn't bug me if he wasn't letting someone else do it. And . he wants me to talk to the centre girl. And . not mind. And I can "recognise that she is talking to the other girls as well, but not probe too deeply". He knows it bugs me. He doesn't really give a shit. He knows it bugs me that he won't tell me why he has made this decision. Again, I don't think he gives a shit. 8221; I hear this.
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Struggling With Submission: May 2015
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Sunday, May 31, 2015. Everybody has a secret world inside of them. I mean everybody. All of the people in the whole world, I mean everybody — no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside. Inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds… Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands, maybe. Isn't that an amazing thing to realize? Friday, May 29, 2015. Sometimes it's so clear to me that poly is a crappy idea for me. It seems to work great for other people.
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Struggling With Submission: Playing Requests
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Sunday, November 13, 2016. Life is complicated. The way I feel about everything, people and relationships and where I'm going and who I like seems complicated. I have no role models for poly. Sure Franklin Veaux. But he's a guy. He has theories. I have emotions. And analysis. Oh, and I'm a submissive. And I'm afraid you'll think I'm a slut. Which is ridiculous, but real.) But okay, I think I need to get over that. So blog readers, where should we go next? Or would you rather hear about his other girls?
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Struggling With Submission: April 2015
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Thursday, April 30, 2015. He says to me that he is worried that when we meet I will be freaked out by how far along they are. Wednesday, April 29, 2015. A submissive NEEDS to be the center of your universe because their submission demands it. You became the center of their universe the moment you accepted their submission.". I'm not sure who to attribute this to, but it's so true sometimes. Tuesday, April 21, 2015. Does it mean I have to love the significant others of my significant other? And in a very ...
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Struggling With Submission: Analysis
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Wednesday, November 2, 2016. I love the analysis of my Dom/sub relationships. And the Dominant I chose used to love that with me. I'm realising lately that he really doesn't want that with me anymore. What he wants is quantity not quality. More girls, less deep with any one. He simply doesn't have time, and it's a trade off, and so what he wants is just more variety. November 2, 2016 at 6:41 PM. Analysis- not a bad skill set to have ;-). November 3, 2016 at 7:31 PM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Struggling With Submission: November 2010
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010. It sucks when what I want and what He wants are different. I want to give him what he wants. Because that’s the way our thing works. And naturatly he wants that too. He likes getting his way. So when we have struggled over the past months (and yes, for those of you who have pointed this out before, when don't I struggle? Maybe my blog should be called Struggling with Submission), one of the things that has been hard has been that he didn't want the truth from me. Micdotcom: F...
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Struggling With Submission: November 2015
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Friday, November 20, 2015. Some days I don't even want to submit to him anymore. It's too much work. Yes, I do still want to submit to someone. But I'm tired of the struggle. He's made it too hard. And just not worth the investment of time and energy and tears. I think I am giving up. Monday, November 16, 2015. He says "Trust me subgirl". How can he seriously expect me to trust him? I feel like he has squandered the trust between us. And he's still saying "Trust me subgirl",. Thursday, November 5, 2015.
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Struggling With Submission: June 2015
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Monday, June 29, 2015. God he can be an asshole sometimes. The relentless negativity, day after day. Maybe I'm just not that into it anymore. Come back when you want to be a decent person. If you want to. In the meantime, go rain on someone else for a while. Friday, June 26, 2015. I don't know why it makes me so happy. Maybe just because it was the right thing to do. I love the rainbows all over facebook. All over the internet. Happy rainbow day everyone. Wednesday, June 24, 2015. And you know what?
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Struggling With Submission: October 2015
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Saturday, October 31, 2015. You say I take everything and turn it around on you? I never knew you thought that. But you've said it several times today, yesterday. I guess that's one more thing i am shitty at in relationships right? One more thing I cant do, because then it's all my fault? I can't win, can I? I think we are about done. Wednesday, October 21, 2015. It's so amazing when it's good. Getting right up to the edge of orgasm. Not allowed to step over. And wanting to. Wanting it. He damn sure does...