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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: November 2013
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Writing about my life and love. Tuesday, November 26, 2013. One year today since my love left this life. I miss him so much it is nearly unbearable. I have burned a candel in front of his picture all day. I have not cried. I dont think I can. November has been kind, mild and sunny, but I dont realy care. I want my love, and he is gone forever. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). View my complete profile. A Troll At Sea. Don't try this at home. Is there a word for people like me? My Hetero Gay Life.
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: April 2014
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Writing about my life and love. Thursday, April 10, 2014. I am totally confused, scared shitless, a bit ashamed, a bit puzzled, a bit guilyt , but at the same time. I feel alive for the first time in many years it seem. You see. I have met somebody. His name is Mio, and he is 22 years old, or should I say young. He is WAY too young! I didn’t meet him just now. I have known him for a while. Heis babybrother came moving in with Ravns mom and stepdad last august . How can I even think of him this way. My na...
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: As time goes by.
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Writing about my life and love. Tuesday, December 30, 2014. As time goes by. Maybe this will be the last time you will hear from me. A New year is coming up, and I just wanted to tell you all that I am ok. I still miss the love of my life, but I have learned to go on with my life without him. Even so there is a new little Ravn in our lives this days. Trine gave birth to a sweet babyboy in Oktober, and he got Ravns name. He would have been so proud! Https:/ www.youtube.com/watch? Love, Firethorne (Mark).
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: December 2012
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Writing about my life and love. Monday, December 17, 2012. This is Trine and this is probably the saddest thing I ever have written or ever will write. But I have to write this. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. My darling Ravn died peacefully in his sleep in hospital three weeks ago. On the 26th of November, I was there along with Sander and Ravn's family. The inflammations had become too much for his. The funeral was held about a week later after which he was cremated. This was played at Ravns funeral :. And go...
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: Trying to go on.
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Writing about my life and love. Thursday, September 19, 2013. Trying to go on. I am still alive out here in cold Norway. Life goes on in a joyless, painful way. I still can't belive Ravn is gone. He is still so close to me somehow. My health situasjon is about the same. I am mostly in the weelchair. I am in pain most of the time, and I still have nurses taking care of me. I don't want to burden Gran with that. October 9, 2013 at 5:11 AM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). My name is Ravn.meaning rav...
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: His soul is free.
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Writing about my life and love. Friday, July 26, 2013. His soul is free. He soul is free now. We have been up to his place in the mountains. To let his ashes fly with the wind. To let him fly free over the mountains and the eternal snow. Over the stream in the mountainside he loved so much. He has become one with the nature. Wich he once sprung from. The circle is closed. His soul is free. My love, play with the winds and the rain. Glow in the sunlight. Be the brightest of the stars. He belongs to the sea.
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: January 2014
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Writing about my life and love. Thursday, January 16, 2014. This chrismas has been the worst ever. No snow. Just wind and rain. Suits me. I have lost the christmas joy that Ravn helped me find with his love. And I spent most of it in hospital anyway. It is a new year, and I try to look forward. I wont say I am good at it, but I do my best. I have been exercising a lot and my back has grown stronger from it. Oh, Ravn.my sweet Ravn. How can it ever heal? Iver has moved out from the farm to start a life of ...
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: March 2013
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Writing about my life and love. Friday, March 29, 2013. Why can't I choose. Broken after years with pain. Out of my body. Leaving a big ragged hole. Open for the wind. We were once so young. I am a thousand years old. I have seen it all. I am dead tired. Wednesday, March 27, 2013. So here I am. I have not decided if I am alive or dead. My body hurts, but my soul is an open wound. I can cope with the pain in my body. I am used to that. It almost makes me feel safe. And it gives me a break from my mind.
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Nightwatcher and flamekeeper: No God.
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Writing about my life and love. Thursday, May 16, 2013. It is like hearing his voice. Dark, warm and sweet. Wispering in my ear. It hurts so bad. No attack can make me hurt. Half as bad as this. It makes him so alive. Like he would be here. How can I ever live again. Do I want to? I am so lonely. And this big scary world. He is not in it anymore. I want him to be. I want a sign. I want to belive. That he is waiting. I have no God to pray to. No one to trust. If he is with him now. Wont let me sit.
