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Reflections: Rejection and self
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Thursday, October 28, 2010. The past weekend was very hard. I was told, in a clear way, at a time when further processing seemed unlikely, that my outward appearance was something that drove people away. I was asked if this is what I intended, which was odd. I've a lot of things to reflect on. It's just that this one is really painful. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). The Other Half of Me. View my complete profile.
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Reflections: May 2009
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Sunday, May 31, 2009. The head noise is bad this morning. I got persuaded a long time ago that this never does stop. Meditation and other things do help, but in the end the noise is always there. It is more about what you DO about this that counts. So at 5 am I am wide awake. *I hate typing* And I start ruminating on the usual stuff. Not all is bad and ugly,. But most of it is bad and ugly. I've learned in the past that usually (but not always) simply getting up shifts it around in odd ways, and I'm left...
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Reflections: October 2009
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Friday, October 30, 2009. Turn and face the strange". Since my father's death last month, something has changed, deeply, inside me. It's not about that relationship - that was always hard, and of late, very distant. It's more to do with the growing self-realization, the part of me that now, finally, is starting to know who I am, no longer the definition of someone else. And with that has come an odd shift in my sex and sexuality and my desire. I KNOW this odd person well]. And with that comes the recogni...
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Reflections: August 2012
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Monday, August 06, 2012. To Thine Own Self, Be True". I've no idea if Socrates really said that. I have believed that to be true for my whole life. But I've also done a lot of thinking about true and what is true for me lately. I re-encountered this whole concept during my Like A Pro training. It made perfect sense. It resonated. If I cannot be true to my self, how can I accept the requests of others? Which leads me to ask, perhaps quite logically: how on earth does. That the "real self" is woo woo?
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Reflections: "To Thine Own Self, Be True"
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Monday, August 06, 2012. To Thine Own Self, Be True". I've no idea if Socrates really said that. I have believed that to be true for my whole life. But I've also done a lot of thinking about true and what is true for me lately. I re-encountered this whole concept during my Like A Pro training. It made perfect sense. It resonated. If I cannot be true to my self, how can I accept the requests of others? Which leads me to ask, perhaps quite logically: how on earth does. That the "real self" is woo woo?
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Reflections: Irrationality
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Monday, October 11, 2010. There's a lot of "stuff" behind my reticence and anger over the camp. I realize that quite a lot, maybe all of it, is largely irrational. And that leads me to consider that a lot of it is about my feelings around my father. Step one: do a better job about taking care of myself. Learn to TAKE that time I need to be whole. Whatever that is, let go, let it happen, do it. Step two: own this. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). The Other Half of Me. View my complete profile.
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Reflections: January 2012
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Wednesday, January 25, 2012. Odd A simple "hi" leads to an absurdity of complication. I say "we seem to be fellow travelers. Wanna share? And I get "No thanks. I am not interested in a date". Eh? Honestly, I am sick to death of the communication problem. It's read into like no tomorrow. This is the kind of thing that drives me away. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). The Other Half of Me. View my complete profile.
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Reflections: January 2010
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010. Since my dad died, I've changed a lot. One thing that shifted was the time I felt I needed to spend by myself. Seems that's grown a lot. Now, I wonder. Am I spending too much time alone? It's funny, cuz I think now more than ever I have a need to have someone to reflect off of, to pull me up short when I am really in left field and to reinforce things when I'm not. Challenge here is that the dark side creeps in and I have to work harder to stay that. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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Reflections: Time out
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Thursday, October 07, 2010. Events are not "time for me" they are not "downtime". So when I go, I need to allow for recuperation, down time, afterwards. My internal creativeness whatever that may be, is stifled. I need to open that up. Both of the above play into my feeling I cannot achieve intimacy, as I am so wonting for the above that I tend to push back at others in order to try and get it. and since I am not aware that that is what I need or want, that push back comes out wrong and hurtful.
