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This Effing Blog: Are We There Yet?
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Sunday, April 19, 2009. Are We There Yet? Today, a first and a continuation. Tonight's event was well done, and enjoyable. The women who were honored were well deserving of the acknowledgement they received. I had a good time. I laughed. I spent time with friends. I only cried twice. A success, in my estimation. I looked for her along every street and wanted to believe . again. I think this is just how it goes. And that it will all be over. That someone or something will make it all better. In the Spring...
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on my mind: 01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008
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An accidental blog where I ramble about kids, knitting, gardening and whatever else comes to mind. Sunday, January 27, 2008. As with journalling, blogging is sometimes sparse these days. But I am and try to always remain grateful for all I have. Today some of the gratitudes foremost on my mind are:. The wonderful morning at church. Making a delicious soup for dinner (which is cooking on the woodburning stove as I type. A nap - an infrequent occurance for me but something I needed today. Links to this post.
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This Effing Blog: San Luis Rey
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Sunday, November 14, 2010. How strange to arrive here only to find you mourning at your own grave. I had meant for this to be today's solitary endeavor, but here you are, bent slightly over the marker that bears your name. How strange to see you, your back to me as I stride up the walkway carrying sunflowers past Mary with the outstretched arms of iron-robed promises of comfort. How strange. Tell me, have you brought the pennies for my eyes? I miss Aida. I was a member of Las Comadres. In the Spring of 2...
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This Effing Blog: April 2009
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009. My apologies, first of all - and mostly to myself - for staying away for so long. I find myself curiously reluctant to write sometimes. I suppose that might be because I'm not as eager for introspection as I think I am. Or perhaps it's because I'm less eager for sharing. Or because I still wonder what this is and is going to be. I'm also just plain tired. Tonight's post is about grapes. Frozen grapes. Sunday, April 19, 2009. But all this has come at a price. In many ways, I am no...
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This Effing Blog: What Comes After
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Sunday, April 19, 2009. But all this has come at a price. In many ways, I am now engaging as my own self in ways that I would not otherwise have done except for the experiences of these last months, including the death of my wife. I am who I am this afternoon writing this because of who I have. Been I am gathered into the center of a new family of parents, siblings, cousins, and children precisely because they are the source of Aida; the holiday meals and dance of relation is now my ritual too.
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This Effing Blog: November 2010
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Sunday, November 14, 2010. How strange to arrive here only to find you mourning at your own grave. I had meant for this to be today's solitary endeavor, but here you are, bent slightly over the marker that bears your name. How strange to see you, your back to me as I stride up the walkway carrying sunflowers past Mary with the outstretched arms of iron-robed promises of comfort. How strange. Tell me, have you brought the pennies for my eyes? Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). In the Spring of 2009, my wife died...
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This Effing Blog: The Wedding Tree
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Tuesday, May 5, 2009. Today was the second anniversary of my marriage to Aida. I call it that, although it wasn't legal or sanctioned by any office of the state. As my friend Lisa likes to say, "Feh." Ain't no never mind about that justice of the peace; the good Dean presided over a wedding as real as any other. We stood beneath the swaying blessing of the tree in the backyard and were embraced by its green promise of life and renewal. It came to be known as The Wedding Tree from that day forward. The We...
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This Effing Blog: Perishables
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009. My apologies, first of all - and mostly to myself - for staying away for so long. I find myself curiously reluctant to write sometimes. I suppose that might be because I'm not as eager for introspection as I think I am. Or perhaps it's because I'm less eager for sharing. Or because I still wonder what this is and is going to be. I'm also just plain tired. Tonight's post is about grapes. Frozen grapes. Oh, my. Grapes. April 29, 2009 at 11:32 AM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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This Effing Blog: It's Not You, It's Me
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Friday, April 17, 2009. It's Not You, It's Me. Today's PSA: It's Not You, It's Me. I cry a lot. I just do. I think it can be likened to the way that infants cry. They just do. Something about clearing toxins from the body. And it's an effective, if not always efficient or eloquent, way to communicate that something is wrong. For me, I cry because I have a dark stone on my chest. I think that makes it hard to breathe and maybe I need to make the extra effort. Besides, it hurts. April 18, 2009 at 9:53 AM.
