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Now is Now: Program day 67
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010. RED LIGHT: stop everything and put 100% focus on getting back on track. Skipping meals entirely (a few times a week). Skimping (less than 75% of what I should eat) most of the time. OCD-ish food things like eating one bite out of everything and throwing the remainder away. Lying to people I live/work with about my meal plans (like the fact that my parents think I picked up breakfast out and ate lunch with Friend A on Monday and Wed when, really, I just skipped the meals). Retur...
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Now is Now: Day 75
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Saturday, August 14, 2010. I was so hungry when I woke up. I wanted to eat, but chose not to because I would have program breakfast in 2 hours anyway. I don't think I could walk into the program and say, "I promise I already ate an appropriate breakfast so don't worry about feeding me this morning." Yeah, that wouldn't go over so well. Which was an assignment for me to read). And then later goes, "Remember when you used to eat onion soup out of a tablespoon? I mean. geez! Snack: Fruit and Nut Kind Bar.
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Now is Now: Day off 19 summary
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010. Day off 19 summary. I'm tired and don't quite feel like writing a long post. So this is for documentation and self-learning:. L: So enjoyable. So tasty. Soooo tasty. At a restaurant. I ate 75% of what I know I would have had to eat if I were with the program staff. Today, I was kind of up to my elbows in "ed recovery" instead of totally diving in. I know how to dive in; I've dived in before. Maybe I just gone worn out? I did okay today, but I could have done better. Your mind is ...
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Now is Now: Day 74
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Friday, August 13, 2010. It was relaxing eating at the program today for the most part. I enjoyed being at the table for snack, lunch, snack. I wasn't over thinking too much. I enjoyed my company. I really do like the other girls. In group, 3 people said "restricting," and, unexpectedly, I had this instant reaction of a pit in my stomach and a tightness in my chest. I didn't expect such a reaction from the word "restricting." It was this reaction that was just like, "Ew, get away! Yay That takes me throu...
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Now is Now: Day off 20
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Saturday, August 7, 2010. I have comments to respond to. and I will, I will. hang tight one more day. I haven't forgotten you, your comments mean a lot to me, and I will get back to you! Let me give you one example:. Last night, my friend from college gave me support. Would you still be eating dinner? Well, she didn't get that text in time for dinner, but, later on at night, right as I was about to not eat my evening snack, she texted back and this is the text convo:. Sounds great and VERY VERY normal!
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Now is Now: Day 70
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Monday, August 9, 2010. I sit here writing this, post program, 9pm. And I am in such a confused state. Do I have an eating disorder? Is my eating disorder really "Raging," like the staff told me today? Am I really incapable of working and doing recovery? Is the staff tricking me into thinking I'm worse than I am? Am I tricking them into thinking I'm doing worse than I am? What do I do? What should I do? OMG So. with that being my thought process. here are some bullet point:. Does this mean I'm not trying?
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Now is Now: Day off 20 - a peaceful morning
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Saturday, August 7, 2010. Day off 20 - a peaceful morning. What a nice morning. First, I woke up and my sheets had hardly moved. That never happens. I must have been very still in my sleep last night. Then I evaluated how I felt - do I feel okay? Yes So I guess the unwanted dinner and evening snack didn't kill me after all. I packed lunch - as, even though I don't have program today - I am going to go down for an optional group this morning and stay there to eat my lunch. Have a good day you all! I loved...
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Now is Now: day 71
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010. Well, I had a whole lot of things I was going to write a/b. Positive things actually. But all things go out the window for now. I don't want to write or explain at the moment. I'll just announce:. Staff called me in to talk to all of them today. They told me they want me to go to residential. August 11, 2010 at 2:12 AM. August 11, 2010 at 3:31 AM. Take care Laura. Ill be thinking of you. August 11, 2010 at 4:40 AM. I dont know how you feel about this, but I hope you are consider...
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About:Who’s Adi? | Letting Go and Holding On
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Letting Go and Holding On. A process of Rebuilding. I want to know what hunger feels like,. I want to know what it means to wake up one morning and be unsure of where I’ll be the next,. I want to feel the earth and the wind and the snow as if its all I have,. I want to experience the freedom of no possessions,. I want to see through the eyes of the underprivileged and take their blistered hands as my own,. I want to give back as much as I take. I want to breath without pollution,. I adore the sun,. July ...
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Jamie Oliver: Teach Every Child About Food | Letting Go and Holding On
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Letting Go and Holding On. A process of Rebuilding. August 3, 2010. Jamie Oliver: Teach Every Child About Food. Jamie Oliver, love him. I can’t say anything more or anything better than he did on this topic but it is a VERY serious and immediate issue. It should not be like this. Please just open your ears and eyes to this. This entry was posted on Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010 at 9:44 pm and posted in Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0. What is an ending ».