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Stop It-Just Stop It! 8220;A loud and cheerful greeting early in the morning will be taken as a curse.” Proverbs 27:14. 8220;Gooood morning ladies! Rise and shine. Be sure to make the most of your day.”. Four hours of sleep–if I’d actually slept. Wool clogged my brain. One foot in front of the next. Shower. Undressing had to be done inside the bathroom. Each room had security cameras in the bedrooms. Forgot your towel? 8220;I have to sleep.”. 8220;I need you to come to finance to sign papers.”. And then ...
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The Author – recoveringcanaan
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November 4, 2015. November 4, 2015. Stop It-Just Stop It! I dreamed I stood alone on a stage in front of my friends, script in hand. But when I looked at the pages there were no words. It was one of those nightmarish disasters such as finding yourself in public wearing nothing but underwear. In my dream I felt lost. Pathetic. Insignificant. But in the morning…ah yes, in the morning, sickness and remorse would set in. What a fool I’d been the night before! Somewhere, I crossed the line even for my own mad...
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January 2016 – recoveringcanaan
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Stop It-Just Stop It! 8220;I don’t like that man. I must get to know him better.” Lincoln. Ask almost anyone and they’ll tell you how low alcoholics are. They’re weak in character, have little self control, are irresponsible, thieves, liars and basically shit on everyone in their lives. A great deal of the populace doesn’t buy the disease model, seeing that as an excuse to get out of bad behavior. I have to admit, that’s pretty much what I thought. He land of the free and the proud and the brave. Ironica...
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The Cart of Numb – recoveringcanaan
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The Cart of Numb. October 28, 2015. November 11, 2015. Stop It-Just Stop It! Bizarre curiosity makes a quick appearance whenever I hear of someone’s death. While I’m just beginning to ask “How? 8221; the better behaved adult steps in, takes that childish hand and says, “Now, now. That is not polite. Don’t you go asking anyone. It’s just sad they died.”. But that little kid still wonders. If I were reading this blog, I’d be wondering “How much did she really drink? 8220;A loud and cheerful greeting early ...
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Still Leaving Egypt – recoveringcanaan
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October 9, 2016. October 9, 2016. Stop It-Just Stop It! Perhaps everyone has an Egypt to leave at some time in their lives. Those exoduses share certain dynamics:. The pain of staying is greater than the pain of leaving. Staying and trying to change the slave/master dynamic (or whatever dysfunction exists) has been attempted with no success. Hopelessness feels like the end of the world. One day the desire to survive, or an act of God takes the choice away. That is the “Leave Now” moment. But life moved o...
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October 2015 – recoveringcanaan
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Stop It-Just Stop It! The Cart of Numb. Bizarre curiosity makes a quick appearance whenever I hear of someone’s death. While I’m just beginning to ask “How? 8221; the better behaved adult steps in, takes that childish hand and says, “Now, now. That is not polite. Don’t you go asking anyone. It’s just sad they died.”. But that little kid still wonders. If I were reading this blog, I’d be wondering “How much did she really drink? What about the time we had wine at the retreat? October 28, 2015. 8220;A loud...
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October 2016 – recoveringcanaan
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Stop It-Just Stop It! Perhaps everyone has an Egypt to leave at some time in their lives. Those exoduses share certain dynamics:. The pain of staying is greater than the pain of leaving. Staying and trying to change the slave/master dynamic (or whatever dysfunction exists) has been attempted with no success. Hopelessness feels like the end of the world. One day the desire to survive, or an act of God takes the choice away. That is the “Leave Now” moment. We can’t take our beloved dogs? Not even the cats?
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December 2015 – recoveringcanaan
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Stop It-Just Stop It! Stop It-Just Stop It! There’s a famous Bob Newhart show where a client tells Bob she has a fear of being buried alive in a box. His sage words to her are “Stop it–Just Stop it! 8221; (click here to see: Stop It Episode. The first time I told a friend I was an alcoholic they said, “That’s a sin. You need to repent.” Wow. I sat back and thought. She was right. I was a horrible person! But I couldn’t stop. The fact is that sometimes we need other people. There are a lot of hurting peop...
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They – recoveringcanaan
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January 25, 2016. January 25, 2016. Stop It-Just Stop It! 8220;I don’t like that man. I must get to know him better.” Lincoln. Then came real life. Alcohol spread it’s cancerous tentacles into my life I until I finally gave up and joined the ranks of the very people I’d disdained. If I had not been driven to my knees by something more powerful than myself, I would not be clawing my way through my past, looking for my part in the mess. Who in their right mind wants to do that? Ironically, this brave act m...
