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~Enola~: April 2010
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My story of survival and walk toward redemption. (a work in progress). Monday, April 26, 2010. Returning the Shit to the Rightful Owner. You made me do it. I couldn't help myself. I don't know what came over me. If you hadn't have dressed that way. What did you expect when you said/did/wore that? If you hadn't have done . Do you find yourself collecting other people's garbage? Being a general dumping ground? Family in a fight, and down right dirty, I just walked off. I have lived my life connected with p...
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My Shush Blog: love
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Thursday, October 28, 2010. People seem to manage relationships despite mental illnesses and histories of trauma and who knows what else. But I cannot. I believe that I have to be sane and healed before I can have a relationship. When I dare to think otherwise, the least bit of sexual attraction sends me into a triggery spiral. I hate so many things about what's been done to me. This is one of the things that I hate the most. Looking Back at 2015...
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My Shush Blog: May 2012
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Sunday, May 27, 2012. Since long silences can be a bit ominous on blogs like this, I wanted to update anyone who might still be reading. I'm still working through lots and lots of really painful things, and will be for a long while. But there was a turning point when I met a really wonderful woman and started a relationship with her.we've been dating for about 9 months now. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). The Power of Forgiveness.
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My Shush Blog: calling
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Wednesday, June 8, 2011. I'm in a really bad place. My therapist is out of town for a week, and I cannot bring myself to call the back up therapist. I've never been able to, but I've never been in a place like this while my therapist was on vacation before. I honestly don't know the last time I cut myself - back as a teen maybe? I tried taking a walk and sitting in the sun, but that didn't help either. I had a flash of an almost memory just now a...
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My Shush Blog: Body memories during meditation
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Wednesday, October 27, 2010. Body memories during meditation. While this was happening, I wasn't able to write about it. Be warned that this may be triggering. When I asked myself what was going in, a young and panicked part answered, he did it he did it. I took this to mean I had been choked as a baby. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. Albert Camus. The im...
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My Shush Blog: sick
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Monday, October 25, 2010. I came home early from work because I wasn't feeling well. I haven't been sleeping soundly lately, but I fell into a dead slumber soon after crawling into bed. When I woke up three hours later, I had my rock in one hand, my stuffed rabbit on my shoulder, and my arms wrapped around a purring cat. It just doesn't get better than that. Crackers and Juiceboxes Blog. I am ready for something to break. The Power of Forgiveness.
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My Shush Blog: inspiration
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Sunday, April 17, 2011. I know something is good when it makes me cry. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). This blog is about the darkness of my healing path. But no matter how dark and painful it is, have no doubt that I am healing. In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. Albert Camus. Crackers and Juiceboxes Blog. I am ready for something to break. SPIRITUAL JOURNEY OF A LIGHTWORKER.
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My Shush Blog: Another meditation/trauma resource
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Saturday, October 30, 2010. I really like this article. For its discussion on meditating and trauma. I already incorporate some of the advice given, but it's good to have the techniques compiled for future reference. The following item is something that I definitely plan to incorporate into my practice. When difficult emotions arise, try holding each one as you would a crying child.". Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). The Power of Forgiveness.
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My Shush Blog: the hard part
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Wednesday, March 9, 2011. Today, my therapist said that remembering must be hard. I told her no, what happened is hard. Experiencing it is hard. But remembering is not hard. I meant it, and it's liberating. It's the path to freedom. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). This blog is about the darkness of my healing path. But no matter how dark and painful it is, have no doubt that I am healing. Crackers and Juiceboxes Blog. The Power of Forgiveness.
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My Shush Blog: put in words
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This blog is dedicated to my fears and struggles and pain. Thursday, June 23, 2011. While going over the coworker drama in therapy, words for a memory showed up. In high school, I called the police on my father. I can see the front of my house and the blue and red lights flashing, but that's all. I don't know what happened, but the next bit is my father holding the phone in his hand and beating me with it. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Crackers and Juiceboxes Blog. I am ready for something to break.