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Hi friend: July 2013
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Thursday, 25 July 2013. I never want to be in love. Love is beautiful. don't get me wrong. i encourage everyone to love much more than they should do. but oh my god don't ever fall in love. In my short life, all i can say is that i ache. every day is an effort. my case is that i am in love and it will just not go away. what can i do? I would rather die than be in love. How ridiculous for me to say that? My whole life i've been wanting something to live for and i find it and this all happens and it's dest...
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Hi friend: excuse me while i go and die in a hovel
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Wednesday, 23 November 2011. Excuse me while i go and die in a hovel. I really don't know what i'm supposed to be doing with my friends these days. in all honesty i don't want to go to sussex to visit crummy jc and her crummy flatmates because she'll probably spend the whole time talking about herself and how her life is going whether good or bad and i'll most likely feel a right knob being thrust into a group of friends i don't know and don't want to at all. WHEN THE TIME WAS 3:55 pm. Was created for my...
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Hi friend: tony's only gonna come down the stairs when tony's good and ready to come down the stairs
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Thursday, 23 June 2011. Tony's only gonna come down the stairs when tony's good and ready to come down the stairs. This is the way life goes. no matter what it blows at you, you've gotta take it in your stride and roll with it. no one can have a perfectly calculated life. i've never heard of two such contrasting notions. regardless, i'm not trying to say anything in particular. but who am i becoming? Can i really achieve my goals? I'm sick of speculating. is this ever going to get any easier? 06 - have y...
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Hi friend: hello adult life
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Sunday, 4 September 2011. I am so miserable. I know what life is now. it's a solemn promise that nothing will go as you planned. i'm ok with this. i understand that it is, now, and i accept this as truth. So many things are upsetting me. Firstly, university. next, friends. and finally, myself. Will i think it's interesting? Will i care enough to carry on? Will it be too hard? Will it be too easy? I'm so afraid. provided i get through all three years, what next? What really will i want to do with my life?
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Hi friend: this day like all others
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Tuesday, 1 May 2012. This day like all others. You know when you just feel like the most worthless, useless, fucking moron in the entire world? I don't understand why bad things happen to good people. like, literally, why me, what have i done, who hates me for what possible reason? I am having a shit moment right now. think i'm gonna have a little break down and cry again. always again. always crying again. I don't understand where i go wrong. am i too focused on attempting to please? Questions i ask hav...
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Hi friend: August 2013
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Sunday, 4 August 2013. Do i want to have been dead for the past 20 years? WHEN THE TIME WAS 4:23 am. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Was created for myself. 日記. This is where i write anything that's on my mind or feel like commenting on. Expect strange and confusing talk on my egotistical and sociopathic existence. A writer. to say the least, a word-player, lexis dancer: i like to boost my ego. View my complete profile. These are just - for you. 04 - , and the perfect rain would fall.
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Hi friend: and death should come as the immediate release
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Tuesday, 31 January 2012. And death should come as the immediate release. Vainly i had sought to borrow from my books surcease of sorrow. I feel like shit again. i'm trying the whole positivity thing but it's tiring. you think you're making progress but only a few days have gone by and you're the only one who's changed. it's hopeless and worthless. and who can i turn to? When did i realise i am so against everything she has become? What is wrong with that? Why do i believe this? WHEN THE TIME WAS 11:25 am.
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Hi friend: imagine if you made that decision that kept you strong
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Thursday, 31 May 2012. Imagine if you made that decision that kept you strong. Things feel. weird. I'm not entirely sure what is going on. i am trying to understand why things happen. why i let things happen. WHEN THE TIME WAS 11:18 pm. Was created for myself. 日記. This is where i write anything that's on my mind or feel like commenting on. Expect strange and confusing talk on my egotistical and sociopathic existence. A writer. to say the least, a word-player, lexis dancer: i like to boost my ego. 11 - cu...
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Hi friend: do i want to have been dead for the past 20 years?
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Sunday, 4 August 2013. Do i want to have been dead for the past 20 years? WHEN THE TIME WAS 4:23 am. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Was created for myself. 日記. This is where i write anything that's on my mind or feel like commenting on. Expect strange and confusing talk on my egotistical and sociopathic existence. A writer. to say the least, a word-player, lexis dancer: i like to boost my ego. View my complete profile. These are just - for you. 04 - , and the perfect rain would fall. 13 - after all,...
