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attachment issues: a stream-of-consciousness reflection | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/03/02/attachment-issues-a-stream-of-consciousness-reflection
Attachment issues: a stream-of-consciousness reflection. March 2, 2015. I am ensconced in pink hessian cubicle walls. it’s like someone built me a square womb out of craft supplies and thumbtacks and lopped the top off it and wheeled me in. I feel surrounded and yet insecure. any minute now, I might be attacked by a flood of loud and inconvenient breaktime talkers. Jesus. I sat and ate my pies and chatted with a friend. and yet. Do people disapprove of me? Why do I not belong? I just don’t. 8216; the dif...
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the correct question to fill in on application forms | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/01/07/the-correct-question-to-fill-in-on-application-forms
The correct question to fill in on application forms. January 7, 2015. Hey guys, guess what? I just discovered a wrong question and a right question to ask when I’m faced with choices. 8216;am I capable of doing this? Is the wrong question. 8216;will this encourage and assist in my mental and emotional recovery, or will it halt or derail it? Is the right one. I’ve been thinking about my baseline for what I consider to be. I am not so terrified I cannot think straight. when I am. This is why ‘. Is a much ...
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in which I describe a little of what depression looks like in me | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/in-which-i-describe-what-depression-looks-like-in-me
In which I describe a little of what depression looks like in me. August 22, 2014. Is depression speaking,. Is the effect of depression in my life,. Is how I act when depressed, and. Is how I act when- what? How do I know how depression affects me when this is all I have ever known,. Is my everyday,. Is just how it is? When I have been some shade of this for at least ten years? It reminds me, just a little, of when I was on medication long enough that I forgot what I was like without it. And becoming, sl...
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(death butterflies: an interlude) | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/02/10/death-butterflies-an-interlude
Death butterflies: an interlude). February 10, 2015. There’s a little voice in my head that dances around saying. I don’t know why I thought I’d be good at this. I don’t know why I thought I’d be good at anything. Underneath it are uglier, quiet words about failure and expectations of, based on a thread of despair of knowing I’m unfixable and will fuck everything up by blundering around being sick. which I cannot truly help. it translates, generally, to. I fuck my life up by existing. A brief note to nob...
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body of death (a snapshot of the wasting disease) | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2014/10/01/body-of-death-a-snapshot-of-the-wasting-disease
Body of death (a snapshot of the wasting disease). October 1, 2014. I wake at seven, climbing in and out of dreams where I am chased through a shopping mall into a changing room for mothers with babies. When my alarm goes off at eight thirty, Sufjan Stevens,. I reset it. Reset it again at nine, and then lie in bed suspended between sleep and wakefulness, weighing up the pros and cons of going in to school. O wretched creature that I am. Who can save me from this body of death? Leave a Reply Cancel reply.
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some reflection on coping mechanisms | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/04/14/some-reflection-on-coping-mechanisms
Some reflection on coping mechanisms. April 14, 2015. You know when you start to feel the drag, the soft-slick suck of mud and heavy water pulling at your legs as you begin, inevitably, to sink? That’s how walking through here feels. swamp and fog. I’m very good at wandering into these precincts. I’m very good at ending up in places where it’s easy to drown. it’s familiar. just call me Ophelia. Something’s wrong. I don’t wander swampland unless something’s wrong. I’ve learned, I’m learning, t...8217;, be...
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rage (also hitting people) | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/02/11/rage-also-hitting-people
Rage (also hitting people). February 11, 2015. One of my friends hits people for fun, three days out of every week, at a place where people teach you to hit people with parts of your body for fun and also maybe defense. she’s offered to take me. I like the idea of being able to hit people. I’ve been wanting to fight since I was little. my parents disagreed. they probably thought I was violent enough, particularly since one of their anecdotes of me as a baby involves me full on. Deliberate control of my.
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the sick and the dead | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/02/06/the-sick-and-the-dead
The sick and the dead. February 6, 2015. I just filled in a Tumblr Googledocs survey about mental illness and the university experience. Here’s the answer I gave to a question about things universities and professors might do to help support students who are undergoing A Fun Experience of Mental Funhood while they attempt to Gain An Education. As well as providing really good, up-to-date support services for students who need help. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. The sick and the dead.
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dead people houses | waiting room
https://marcherry.wordpress.com/2015/01/12/dead-people-houses
January 12, 2015. It’s the most peaceful I’ve been in fucking forever. I still felt like death because when do I not feel like death? By the time I reached the crossing, I was feeling horrible as fuck and my swearing had scaled up significantly, but I saw the sign that said. Next time I’m bringing a picnic blanket and taking a nap there. nobody’s gonna disturb me at a military cemetery. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. The sick a...
