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Eating Away: At the beginning...

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Monday, February 20, 2006. I'm a 30-something mom, living in the suburbs, who's just decided to begin to conquer (well, at least tame! At this point, at this date, at this time (but not this very moment! I'm still bingeing and purging. I'll starve for a few meals, too, and then binge. The other day while watching TV Kellogg's Corn Flakes promised if I ate just corn flakes for breakfast and lunch I'd lose six pounds in two weeks. I need to read the fine print - is that with or without milk?

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Eating Away: Thanks for the Thoughts!

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Sunday, March 05, 2006. Thanks for the Thoughts! I am truly amazed at the wonderful, caring comments I've received on this blog. I'm learning so much, and taking so much in to help myself get better. Thank you, thank you, thank you for reading! I have a packed schedule for the next two weeks, including presentations at schools, meeting with old classmates to plan a reunion, and volunteer events. You know what I hate most about these things? Posted by Mata Hari Mom @ 9:32 PM. Hi Mata Hari Mom, guess what?

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Eating Away: Perfect

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Thursday, February 23, 2006. I have two pairs of pants that fit. Isn't that lovely? I'm 5'3" and 162 pounds. Wow! Now the world wide web knows my weight, and you know what? They don't give a damn. CNN did not just break into a "breaking headline! Posted by Mata Hari Mom @ 7:57 PM. Hi Mata Hari Mom,. I just discovered your blog through Mandy's site today, and am excited to read more about you! Hope you have a wonderful weekend! Mata Hari Mom,. Thank you for your time and hope that all is going to be well.

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Eating Away: But it's there!

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006. Giving up food as a crutch is a hard thing to do. It's always there. And if you don't have it in your house, you can run out and pick up three candy bars for a dollar at the supermarket. No one will pull you over for driving with a candy bar in your mouth. Just the thought of it scares me. At the same time, though, I ask myself, "Why haven't I been strong enough to achieve what they have? Why haven't I had the determination to be a success? What is my tragic flaw?

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Eating Away: March 2006

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Monday, March 20, 2006. I took a huge step and am getting my teeth whitened. Moreso than a financial investment, this is a mind investment. I've told myself that I cannot spend this kind of money and continue to purge. I'm trying to repair the color of my teeth, not make them worse. After all the accomplishments I had this weekend, I just wanted SOMEONE to say, "Wow! You really pulled off quite a bit! And thanks for my blogging friends (like Esperanza) for thinking of me in my absence! Why am I so lazy?

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Eating Away: Quickie

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Saturday, February 25, 2006. I've had a tough, past few days, with personal family issues driving me to binge. I feel that the only solace I have is to eat, otherwise I'll scream. I'm convinced an ED person created Pop-Tarts; they are the perfect blend of flour and sugar, and have that "breakfast" connotation to them. As if I'm going to burn off two Pop-Tarts throughout my day. This ED is easy! Posted by Mata Hari Mom @ 3:19 PM. Now I figure that I just take it one day at a time - because who knows what ...

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Eating Away: Blow Out

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Thursday, March 09, 2006. I had a major binge yesterday. My thought was for this to be a huge, last time binge before going on a "Loose 20 pounds" fast. Do you ever feel like your whole system has been ruined by the bulimia and compulsive overeating? I'm so bummed about my weight. There's another mom at the school where my kidlets go who is so thin. She's like the Queen Bee of Mommy-dom. She powerwalks for at least an hour a day. Why can't I be like that again? Why am I so lazy? I always thought that I'd...

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Eating Away: Binge

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Tuesday, February 28, 2006. I'm in the midst of a binge. This morning I was thinking about how positive a post I could write today. For two days I was binge free. No purging. No starving. Just "normal" eating - three normal meals, and that's it. I was OK until I tried on pants that are tight. Eating disorders are great, aren't they? After two binge-free days, I expected my body to be perfect again. I got on the scale, and didn't like the results. "So, screw it! What will I do? WHAT WILL I DO? It sounds l...

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Eating Away: February 2006

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Tuesday, February 28, 2006. I'm in the midst of a binge. This morning I was thinking about how positive a post I could write today. For two days I was binge free. No purging. No starving. Just "normal" eating - three normal meals, and that's it. I was OK until I tried on pants that are tight. Eating disorders are great, aren't they? After two binge-free days, I expected my body to be perfect again. I got on the scale, and didn't like the results. "So, screw it! What will I do? WHAT WILL I DO? I've had a ...