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To Hear Samantha's Name: Hannah's first trip to the beach
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Monday, July 2, 2012. Hannah's first trip to the beach. This weekend I had the huge blessing and surprise of getting to go to South Padre Island with my family and my parents. I have been wanting to go (I always want to go) especially since last fall when the "fog" began to lift. Why not my daughter? I can't help still asking even 2 years and 3 months later. The waves gently lapped in and out, then got stronger and pushed me to the side then pulled me back. I allowed them to move me as I cradled Hann...
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To Hear Samantha's Name: May 2013
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Monday, May 13, 2013. Mother's Day 2013 without my daughter Samantha or my baby, Jordan. I had a wonderful Mother's Day spending time with my mom and my daughters. I got to laugh and relax and receive a lot of love and give a lot of love. Today for some reason it hit me. Every once in a while I think to myself "remember when your daughter died? It was always there in my heart and then it just hits me in the face. Incredible quilt from Aunt Lynn. Samantha and Jordan were with me yesterday. I wish they...
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To Hear Samantha's Name: Grief Scrapbooking
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Two years ago about this time I was in the throes of grief. A dark and lonely world where your baby is dead and you can't see anything else. My mom bought me a scrapbooking kit. I had never really gotten into that before but I loved the colors of this one and I knew exactly what to do with it. This was one of my first pages. I found it so comforting to create this. Something to do with my hands. Something I could share with others. Something I could look at and touch over and over. Faces of Loss, Faces o...
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THE JOURNEY: May 2011
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Monday, May 30, 2011. Some women feel betrayed by their bodies after having a miscarriage and some women do not want to talk about it and keep it a secret that only they and their close family and friends will share. With both of my miscarriages, I searched for answers. Did I do something wrong? Did I not notice the symptoms and why? Could I have done something different to change the outcome? Am I not meant to have kids? Is something wrong with me?
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THE JOURNEY: Go with the flow
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Wednesday, August 7, 2013. Go with the flow. I have heard many many times "This is how you are supposed to do " and "This is when you should ". You fill in the blank, because if you are a parent I'm sure you have heard many of these kinds of statements, whether it be from your doctor, your mother, your mother-in-law, your friends, other parents, etc, etc. BECAUSE EVERY BABY, EVERY CHILD AND EVERY PERSON IS DIFFERENT! When people ask me for advice or I ...
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THE JOURNEY: September 2011
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Thursday, September 29, 2011. The second stage of grief, anger. The grieving person may then be furious at the person who inflicted the hurt (even if dead), or at the world, for letting it happen. He/She may be angry with themself for letting the event take place, even if, realistically, nothing could have stopped it.". When you lose a baby so many emotions hit you at once and then resurface again and again, sometimes when you least expect it. How do b...
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THE JOURNEY: June 2011
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Monday, June 27, 2011. When Are You Going to Have Kids? When are you going to have kids? This is a question that I have been asked more times than I can count; before we were able to get pregnant, during my m/c and even now, after just losing Lindsey due to IC and infection. Just yesterday, just barely over a month after we lost Lindsey, someone actually asked me this. "So when are you guys going to have kids? Haven't we suffered enough? So of course I...
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THE JOURNEY: Inspiration
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Quotes are something that I have always found comforting and inspiring. I can always find one that fits my mood! As I find them, I will share them here. Enjoy. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched, but are felt in the heart. *Helen Keller*. Bereavement is the deepest initiation into the mysteries of human life, an initiation more searching and profound than even happy love. - Dean Inge. What we have once enjoyed a...
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THE JOURNEY: Progressing Towards Labor
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The things you encounter on the journey called life. Monday, November 19, 2012. Well after I got my cerclage removed at 36 weeks I'm pretty sure I began dilating shortly after. I ended up in labor and delivery once because I swore my water was leaking. They denied this but did say I was 4cm. Of course, they proceeded to tell me it was unlikely I would make it to the end of the week without delivery, this was around 37 weeks if I remember right. Well, 2 weeks later I was still waiting! I decided since I w...
