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nothing's going to change my world: sick day
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Thursday, August 03, 2006. I haven't eaten all day and I called off sick from work this morning. I've come down with a strain of the flu. It started yesterday. I nearly passed out behind the counter at the deli and later on at the bar, I had to keep leaning against the wall. My body felt weak and my head was pounding. Right now every joint aches, I can't keep anything down. I have a fever and my neck is stiff. I feel like my body is a huge bruise. I wish life wasn't like this. I'm tired of working so...
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nothing's going to change my world: Yesterday and Today
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Friday, July 21, 2006. I've seen this survey. In a lot of blogs lately. I never filled out a survey before so I figured I'd give it a shot. I was 12 years old and struggling with puberty. The awkward adolescent years. I had just gotten my period for the first time ( and was hiding it from my mother and my sister. I had bought my first bra, I hated the way I looked. I let my bestfriend bleach my hair and it nearly fell out. I wanted to look like Gwen Stefani. What I knew NOW. Came in for a bagel. We t...
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nothing's going to change my world: 2 A.M. Confession
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Thursday, July 21, 2005. I have only slept with three men in my life. I like to act as though it's been more and give off the illusion that I have all this sexual experience. That I'm a free bird and that casual sex is as natural to me as anything. But the truth is.it's not. It happened at his house, in his bedroom when his parents were out. I remember feeling disappointed afterwards. I just thought " What? It went downhill from there. We broke up 3 months later. Then I met Luke. So that's my history.
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nothing's going to change my world: A crap day
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006. Came over this afternoon. She looked around my flat and all I felt was judgment. From her. I don't know why it bothers me, she doesn't mean anything. To me If we were strangers on the street, we wouldn't talk at all. So then she starts making small talk. we sit down together at the stools next to the counter Island. The whole time I was just wondering what she was doing here and what she wanted from me. I just stared at her while she spoke. I couldn't figure out why. I think she s...
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nothing's going to change my world: still sick
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Monday, August 07, 2006. This flu is knocking the life out of me. I'm still sick. I feel dizzy and disoriented from these painkillers that lisa gave me. I missed 3 days of work. I feel like gravity is working against me and I'm trying to push against the air. I can't stomach anything. I should probably go to the doctor on tuesday if this doesn't go away I can't live like this. Posted by Iris at 3:43 AM. This is my diary. View my complete profile. Bestfriends and Older Men. Great Blogs to read.
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nothing's going to change my world: an update
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Sunday, August 13, 2006. I'm still sick, I've missed so much work. I'm afraid I'm going to get fired. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and I was tested for Mono, Epstein-bar and CMV. After a lot of blood tests, I came up clean. Apparently it's just a particularly bad strain of influenza. It also turns out that I have anemia. I have to start taking prescription iron tablets daily. Jonas has been by my side through all of this. Lisa has been great too. Posted by Iris at 8:56 PM. This is my diary.
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nothing's going to change my world: New Roomie
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Sunday, July 16, 2006. This whole roommate situation is going to take some time to really get used to. Came at 9 pm Friday night with about 6 boxes of stuff. There's nowhere to really put it. She has a ton of make up that she immediately cluttered up the bathroom with and a lot of DVD's. There's her cellphone, her P.C. station, her IPOD and a host of other electronic devices. Including a webcam. I was a little overwhelmed. But I have a feeling that I'll miss my privacy a bit. Posted by Iris at 11:27 PM.
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nothing's going to change my world: Ashamed
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Monday, July 24, 2006. I had two dates with Jonas. This weekend. One on Saturday and one on Sunday. We had a lot of fun. We laughed, joked around and had dinner together. I can't remember the last time I felt so relaxed and most like myself. The only problem is that I really like him. The more time I spend with him, the more I want a relationship with him. The sexual tension is there and the desire for closeness. I feel it on his end so strongly and he wont act on it. So I went online and Luke. I know ch...
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nothing's going to change my world: horrible week
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Friday, August 18, 2006. My health is back but this has been a terrible week for me. 1 I lost my job at the Deli. I had to take off for a week and a half because I was too sick to get out of bed. I had explained the situation and I had a note from the doctor. I was also hospitalized for a short time and I had proof of that as well. I knew they were going to hire someone new temporarily to fill in for me. It's a small family-owned deli. 2 I had to kiss my boss to keep my job at the bar. At this point I co...
