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Lightning Strikes Twice: Dreams Invaded
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Tuesday, March 11, 2014. All dreams string along some bit of the bizarre and this dream's oddity was that I nursed my sweet baby for twelve perfect minutes, then laid her to sleep while I left the hospital and visited my sister and brother in law. I shared my triumphant delivery news only after chit-chatting for some length. How had I forgotten such a monumental life event? How could I take my miracle so lightly? Why didn't the joy I felt lead me to hold and cherish my baby? What was wrong with me? Dream...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: Cradles at the Graves
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Sunday, March 17, 2013. Cradles at the Graves. I'm going to AZ soon. One must do on the trip is a visit to the graveyard. Urgency compels me to check in and make sure it's safe and intact (it's a private graveyard in the high desert). But I dread the visit secretly. I haven't told even my husband (have I? Hmmmcan't recall) how going there makes me feel helpless. And I HATE feeling helpless in regards to my babies! Nature itself seems to push down my high imaginations for my family's gravesides. I think i...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: September 2013
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Thursday, September 5, 2013. My still born's birth day is in 2 days. I think about it a lot;or more to the point, the fact. My heart feels the reality and the love and the loss but my mind doesn't want to linger there for long. No answers yet, just an observation. One day, hopefully soon, I will write about Claire's special 4th birthday. It was a powerful one that I am still recovering from. This birthday particularly struck my daughter this year. And for Jackson's 5th year birth day service? July 8, 2009.
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Lightning Strikes Twice: April 2012
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Wednesday, April 25, 2012. Tuesday, April 10, 2012. Me now, 34 weeks. Not sure why I have avoided the blog for soooo long. But, today I decided it is enough! Obviously, I am pregnant yet again. My husband and I feel this will be our last roll of the dice. We prayed about it the whole first year of our miracle baby's life and a surprising answer was get pregnant (it was either that or adopt). I felt a lot of peace that everything would be fine. At a mere 7wks I started bleeding! Also, my Dr advised me to ...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: November 2014
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Saturday, November 22, 2014. I am neither defined by my pain. Nor chained by my pain;. But I am buffed. After the intensity, the brutality of my pain. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). December 13, 2000. January 31, 2002. Birth of Healthy Son. July 29, 2003. Birth of Healthy Daughter. Early Miscarriage of twin girls. After a long wait for hubby to finish school, a longed-for confirmed pregnancy! September 7, 2008. 39 weeks, Stillborn Son Delivered - rare cord accident. July 8, 2009. This Blog is Born. Kyndal, ...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: January 2011
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Tuesday, January 25, 2011. A Bereaved Parents Wish List. A friend sent me this list today. What do you think? I am posting it in hopes it will speak to someone and make them feel affirmed in their feelings. I miss my kids. Came across this on the Facebook site of Gail Mahar. Thought you might like). A Bereaved Parent's Wish List. I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had my child back. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both. I wish you wouldn't expe...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: SIDS
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Tuesday, January 28, 2014. Reading about seratonin, that lovely "happy chemical" which I appear genetically low in, I came across this -. In humans, defective signaling of serotonin in the brain may be the root cause of. Sudden infant death syndrome. SIDS) Scientists from the European Molecular Biology Laboratory in Monterotondo, Italy. If neurons that make serotonin — serotonergic neurons — are abnormal in infants, there is a risk of. Sudden infant death syndrome. Wikipedia article explaining seratonin).
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Lightning Strikes Twice: March 2014
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Tuesday, March 11, 2014. All dreams string along some bit of the bizarre and this dream's oddity was that I nursed my sweet baby for twelve perfect minutes, then laid her to sleep while I left the hospital and visited my sister and brother in law. I shared my triumphant delivery news only after chit-chatting for some length. How had I forgotten such a monumental life event? How could I take my miracle so lightly? Why didn't the joy I felt lead me to hold and cherish my baby? What was wrong with me? Dream...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: May 2011
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Monday, May 30, 2011. Blue found this most amazing story from National Geographic. A first time mother lost her two-week old baby.She wouldn't leave his little body. The photos caught were amazing. They show her grief, which I immediately connected with. But then there are photos of her community coming and sitting around her - at a slight distance, just watching, sitting. They are mourning with her! Thursday, May 26, 2011. Early Birthday Gift For Jackson. Two days ago we paid off our car! I know it's me...
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Lightning Strikes Twice: Pre-birthday jitters
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Thursday, September 5, 2013. My still born's birth day is in 2 days. I think about it a lot;or more to the point, the fact. My heart feels the reality and the love and the loss but my mind doesn't want to linger there for long. No answers yet, just an observation. One day, hopefully soon, I will write about Claire's special 4th birthday. It was a powerful one that I am still recovering from. This birthday particularly struck my daughter this year. And for Jackson's 5th year birth day service? Pregnant ag...
