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Musings of a lesbian nerd: Frustration excerpt
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Monday, December 20, 2010. Loneliness. Agonizing loneliness. Mind shattering loneliness. Tears again - tears with no owner. Nothing seems to go my way. Fucking frustration again - how can I make it turn? Hurricane shuffles thoughts around and around, never peace, never sleep, always churning. What is wrong with me - how did I get here? I try The world screams NOOOOOO! Posted by Nerdine @ 9:58 AM. View my complete profile.
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: fear
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Wednesday, December 15, 2010. Going to the doctor today to talk about my weight problems. Am NOT looking forward to it. It is one of those things you need to do but postpone indefinitely until you just have to. I was in a good flow last fall. I know what to do to lose weight. I have all the knowledge I need, and yet it is so incredibly hard. Posted by Nerdine @ 9:54 AM. View my complete profile. Do as I say not as I do.
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: January 2011
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Friday, January 28, 2011. When changes comes they change everything. Strange isn't it? Posted by Nerdine @ 10:14 AM. Thursday, January 20, 2011. And then - just like that - things changes for the better. After a year of misery and heartache and bitterness I am again happy. Strange isn't it - how things can just turn when you are not looking. Posted by Nerdine @ 11:46 AM. View my complete profile. Do as I say not as I do.
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: Do as I say not as I do
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Friday, December 03, 2010. Do as I say not as I do. Why is it I am sooo not good at listening to my own advice? I give advice freely and good advice too. And then I look at myself and I know I could do well with following the same advice myself. Do as I say not as I do seems to be a mantra of mine. I have been thinking about this for some time now - ever since my little breakdown in August. (see? Why is it we do this?
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: The Puppet Master
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Sunday, July 08, 2007. I am my own puppet master" she realized with a start. "So why don't I feel like I am in control? She sits down on the bus. That is where she can think, that is where she is able to shut the world out, and just be. At the bus the thought about the puppet master comes in. Suddenly she has this incredible need to write. "If I am the puppet master - how do I control it? 1 Stop seeing your friend altoget...
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: July 2007
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Sunday, July 08, 2007. I am my own puppet master" she realized with a start. "So why don't I feel like I am in control? She sits down on the bus. That is where she can think, that is where she is able to shut the world out, and just be. At the bus the thought about the puppet master comes in. Suddenly she has this incredible need to write. "If I am the puppet master - how do I control it? 1 Stop seeing your friend altoget...
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: changes
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Thursday, January 20, 2011. And then - just like that - things changes for the better. After a year of misery and heartache and bitterness I am again happy. Strange isn't it - how things can just turn when you are not looking. She is coming here to see me for Valentines day and we will take it from there. But oh my am I excited! Posted by Nerdine @ 11:46 AM. View my complete profile. Do as I say not as I do.
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: December 2010
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Monday, December 20, 2010. Loneliness. Agonizing loneliness. Mind shattering loneliness. Tears again - tears with no owner. Nothing seems to go my way. Fucking frustration again - how can I make it turn? Hurricane shuffles thoughts around and around, never peace, never sleep, always churning. What is wrong with me - how did I get here? I try The world screams NOOOOOO! Posted by Nerdine @ 9:58 AM. Last fall I was doing mos...
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Musings of a lesbian nerd: update
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Musings of a lesbian nerd. Trials and triumfs, my ups and downs. What's on my mind. Friday, January 28, 2011. When changes comes they change everything. Strange isn't it? Posted by Nerdine @ 10:14 AM. Educated and cultural, silly and geeky, lesbian, shy yet outgoing, strong, stubborn, boi, gentle, kind, buddhist, humanist, quasi vegetarian, hopeless romantic. complicated and yet oh so simple. "it is the quiet ones that changes the world". View my complete profile. Do as I say not as I do.
