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Roiben Lost Time
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Sunday, 6 May 2012. Amazingly, I am currently going through a relatively stable period psychologically speaking. My body, never one to be outdone has instead screwed with my blood-sugars and I have spent the past two weeks using every witch parts of my fingers to test my blood-sugars and ensure they are at a safe level. Joy. Sorry, but this is the first I have heard of a possible BPD diagnosis. surely they should tell me these things, before passing it on to me in a referral letter? It is hard enough at ...
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Roiben Lost Time: Snow flakes and a breeze
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Monday, 11 March 2013. Snow flakes and a breeze. Have you ever had that feeling of fragility like the slightest breeze could make everything tumble and topple away from you, piece by piece. Small snowflakes in a winters breeze. Each a tear un-falling. I have been feeling this way more and more lately, without knowing a how or a why. Like I want to cry, but doing so would be the final straw and the damn would break, a storm of emotion flooding through. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Snow flakes and a...
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Roiben Lost Time: July 2011
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Wednesday, 20 July 2011. A week of disquiet. It is strange how often the way things begin is very often the way they continue - even if you try your hardest to make it otherwise. This week is very much a case in point. Monday was just a mess. Emotionally, physically, mentally. and the rest of the week has tumbled its way out a chaotic travesty I would not in any way be able to fully explain. Wave of emotions and frets and thoughts that I have barely the time to pin down and process. My Psych now wants me...
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Roiben Lost Time: February 2012
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Friday, 17 February 2012. Unsettling to have that as such a dream, and to have the unshakable image and a tune playing in my head in my waking hours that feels somehow linked. Maybe the person from the dream was listening to that tune play out? Is it worth mentioning this to a therapist. To a psych. Does it make a difference that my thoughts occur in both waking and sleeping lives? That my actions turn to harm and sui on such a regular basis that I barely blink to take in how bad they may seem to others?
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Roiben Lost Time: June 2010
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Sunday, 27 June 2010. I have not been in a while - Again. I suppose I spend so much time thinking away from the computer that by the time I log on to write it all down the thoughts have become too tangled and mixed. A stream of consciousness that no longer makes sense. I am still going to yoga (most weeks), and am still trying to jog. I am still struggling with my moods. I have felt upset. Jealous of the people in the place that my boss will be moving to and conflicted by feelings that somehow it pro...
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Roiben Lost Time: May 2010
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Friday, 14 May 2010. I sometimes look back and accept that however much I may complain of being under-the-weather, depressed or tired, I have still come quite a long way. When I look at now, versus then, there is a change. Subtle, but still significant and achieved in the very baby steps that means I would not always be aware of it. These are not big things to most people, so why - some might say, make a fuss? Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). View my complete profile. There was an error in this gadget.
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Roiben Lost Time: March 2013
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Wednesday, 13 March 2013. As they announce a new Pope, I am sat wondering what it is to believe. If you believe in something, you have hopes and fears wrapped around your idea of what it is. You may make choices based upon it and it may guide decisions that could be life changing to you. It is the only obvious answer. I don't have answers and I don't like not having answers, or a somewhere to find them. It scares me. All of it does. Belief is a scary thing. Monday, 11 March 2013. Snow flakes and a breeze.
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Roiben Lost Time: May 2011
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Thursday, 19 May 2011. It has been so long since I have posted here. Stupidly long. Neglect amidst a mile of changes and many more miles of confusion and decision and chaos. As is life in all its ebbs and flows. Time to dust the cob-webs from this thing and start again, and what better time than the first week of a new job. When my life feels like it is moving somwhere, and carrying me with it. Winds finally in the sails, even if the direction is not quite set yet. Man the oars, I am coming back in.
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Roiben Lost Time: July 2010
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Tuesday, 6 July 2010. I have never felt more alone and confused. Today, I felt surrounded by monsters and amidst the fear and disgust I have come to find normal in their presence, I felt the shock and horror that no-one else had noticed. How could they not see? How could they not spot the discrepancies that scream at me so loudly I can barely look. Do they know yet that anyone can see past their glamour. Can spot them for their inconsistencies and wrongness? Monday, 5 July 2010. A restless existence that...
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Roiben Lost Time: March 2010
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Sunday, 28 March 2010. I should come back though - For the catharsis, if nothing else. I have been thinking a lot lately about the notion of self and self-worth. About the values that people build their world around and where they come from. About how people can be so cruel at times and not appreciate that their view may not be the same as that of the other. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). View my complete profile. There was an error in this gadget. The road less travelled. Things To Say and Douieb.
