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cleaning out: all clean?
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Thursday, November 8, 2007. While I lay there trying to relax while feeling the rush of fluids in and out of my body, I thought about how GRATEFUL. I am that I do not have the kind of lifestyle which would necessitate my taking a phone call while getting a colonic. Clearly, something is not right. So now what? I’d love to get some acupuncture. I think it would help immensely. The question is how? I could have a conversation with my husband during which I tell him my needs and we negotiate our schedules.
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cleaning out: October 2007
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Friday, October 12, 2007. And so now I’m not sure if it’s something I should have eaten or not but then feeling crazy for feeling like I’ve strayed way off course because I ate OATS and UNSWEETENED carob, for crying out loud. This is the place I was afraid of. And so, here I am - hyper-aware of every “symptom” and then wondering what it might be a “symptom” of – life? Or am I just really out of my body and trying to get back in? I think I feel okay, being off the meds. (really? I turn 39 today. But the m...
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cleaning out: now what?
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Wednesday, November 7, 2007. The naprapath I was seeing at the time suggested that my symptoms were allergy-related. Not food allergies, but seasonal. That was also during the fall, so she may have been on to something there. She also recommended that I eat a chopped-up apple sprinkled with flax seeds before going to bed at night, and to avoid raw vegetables. These things seemed to help. I don’t even know if I have it or not, but in any case, I am very grateful. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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cleaning out: just pretending
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Friday, February 15, 2008. It brought back waaaaay to much jr high, in other words. so instead of just saying what I wanted to say, what felt important and true at that moment, I felt like I needed to get everyone's attention, otherwise it's like being on stage in an empty theater. after a while you feel kind of silly. So, anyway. that was then. There I feel better already. Of course it does, and of course it doesn't. I'm utilizing parts of myself that have never been taken out of their delivery box,...
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cleaning out: another day of graditude
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007. Another day of graditude. The last minute baby-sitter that happens to be a known face? That's worth everything in the moment. How is your new class? Was last night the first night? November 7, 2007 at 9:15 AM. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I am a just-about 39-year old mother of two (3 and 1), writer, creative writing teacher, and massage therapist. I have recently embarked upon a physical, psychic and household cleanse and this is my story so far. View my complete profile.
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cleaning out: what was that?
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Saturday, February 16, 2008. I'm not even proofreading when I post now, as a way of proving to myself that this is just for me. ha. so there. Anyway. at some point, I want to make sense or find a context for what was going on with me before - before, when I started the blog, and then before that, with the depression. I am not explaining this nearly as eloquently as she, but her discription had such an impact on me. Well, that's enough for today. time to sleep a bit. This just made me cry. I am so glad!
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cleaning out: September 2007
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Friday, September 28, 2007. Last night’s dreams: I am walking through a grocery store eating a chunk of cheese. When I get outside, I’m busted by a security guard who says I have to go back in and pay for it. I tell him, no, it was mine, I had it in my purse. He says, who do you think you’re kidding lady? What was I thinking? And then I have that panicky feeling of dread where I wonder what other things I have “accidentally” eaten. Nap It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning. I’m really not into...
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cleaning out: February 2008
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Saturday, February 16, 2008. I'm not even proofreading when I post now, as a way of proving to myself that this is just for me. ha. so there. Anyway. at some point, I want to make sense or find a context for what was going on with me before - before, when I started the blog, and then before that, with the depression. I am not explaining this nearly as eloquently as she, but her discription had such an impact on me. Well, that's enough for today. time to sleep a bit. Friday, February 15, 2008. But I don't...
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cleaning out: November 2007
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Friday, November 9, 2007. I am sending out a little payer for all the mothers and women everywhere who are so lucky as me. Thursday, November 8, 2007. While I lay there trying to relax while feeling the rush of fluids in and out of my body, I thought about how GRATEFUL. I am that I do not have the kind of lifestyle which would necessitate my taking a phone call while getting a colonic. Clearly, something is not right. So now what? The good news is that I’m leaving town tomorrow with a friend. I don’...
