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Midnight Mirage: January 2014
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January 31, 2014. My heart spent so long in the ground. Doing nothing but growing larger. And slowly but surely. Over years of darkness and isolation. Now my heart has been uprooted. Pulled from the dark wet ground. The dirt has been washed off. And slowly the layers. And layers of protection. Are being peeled away. My heart is exposed at last. There is no protection left. To keep it safe. From the wind and the rain. From the snow and the lightning. And from the knife that. Cutting it into tiny pieces.
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Midnight Mirage: Falling Out of Love
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May 20, 2014. Falling Out of Love. It took me so long to realize this, but I'm not in love with you anymore. I haven't been for a while now. I'm not in love with you, I'm in love with the idea of you. I'm in love with the idea of being in love. I was in love with the idea of being in love with you. I was in love with the memories of you. I was in love with the idea of us being an us. But in the end, I was still only in love with an idea. Fter so long, I've finally fallen out of love. See you all in 2.
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Midnight Mirage: Real Talk
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May 22, 2014. Graduation is in eight days. Graduating is harder than I thought it would be, though. For that matter, going to school is harder than I thought it would be. I never thought I'd be the kind of person who got senioritis, but I did. Last week I counted up my absences to see how many classes I could still miss without needing to go to attendance school. Is that even allowed? I love listening to Josh Groban's voice, especially when he sings in Italian. It makes me want to fly to Italy, but I...
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Midnight Mirage: Gone
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May 28, 2014. Lying on her trampoline staring up at a once starry sky while we strive to be understood. I may never be here again. Listening to my teacher explain the various characters in the hero's journey before we watch Lord of the Rings. I will never be here again. Walking down crowded hallways full of too many happy, depressed, immature, grown-up, purposeful, confused teenage souls. I hope I am never there again. Sitting in his truck late at night watching the lights in the distance and learning to...
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Midnight Mirage: March 2014
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March 31, 2014. What They Said: Part I of Voices. Sit down and give up," they said;. She closed her eyes and listened. And the dark crept in. You'll always be broken," they said;. She gave in and let herself sleep. And the doubt crept in. Nobody will protect you," they said;. She froze in helpless terror. And the fear crept in. You'll never be good enough," they said;. She lost hope she'd ever smile again. And the guilt crept in. You'll always be alone," they said;. Her tears rained like blood. At first ...
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Midnight Mirage: My Final Words
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June 3, 2014. These are some brief explanations of why I am the way I am. Maybe they will help you understand, but if they don't, well, I guess it's not my problem anymore, because this is me saying goodbye. So here are my final words. To Alyssa Lewis,. You've always been there. You taught me that a true friend doesn't just show up when they think things are going badly and you need help. They are there even when things seem to be going well. Thanks for all the memories. To Sam Tse,. To Devin Glenn,.
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Midnight Mirage: When You Remember
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May 7, 2014. You took my heart. You may not have been trying to, but I lost my heart to you when I met you and now my memories won't let me let you go. Do you remember the first time we spoke? I was terrified and I felt like a mess but you told me I looked beautiful. Do you remember the first time we danced? Maybe you didn't want to and neither one of us expected it, but even when I messed up you were patient. That day was the first time I was scared I would start to love you. Do you remember when I pull...
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Midnight Mirage: June 2014
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June 3, 2014. These are some brief explanations of why I am the way I am. Maybe they will help you understand, but if they don't, well, I guess it's not my problem anymore, because this is me saying goodbye. So here are my final words. To Alyssa Lewis,. You've always been there. You taught me that a true friend doesn't just show up when they think things are going badly and you need help. They are there even when things seem to be going well. Thanks for all the memories. To Sam Tse,. To Devin Glenn,.
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Midnight Mirage: May 2014
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May 28, 2014. Lying on her trampoline staring up at a once starry sky while we strive to be understood. I may never be here again. Listening to my teacher explain the various characters in the hero's journey before we watch Lord of the Rings. I will never be here again. Walking down crowded hallways full of too many happy, depressed, immature, grown-up, purposeful, confused teenage souls. I hope I am never there again. Sitting in his truck late at night watching the lights in the distance and learning to...
